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I don’t the there’s necessarily anything wrong with like Pintrest moodboard curation or like Tumblr aesthetic blogger type stuff, but I do think there’s a kind of person who almost uses that fixation on aesthetics as like a fetish and is detached from the messy, uncurated way the real world works.

One aspect of Fascist thought that I feel like people don’t pick up on because it is also American culture is the way that there is often an aesthetic fixation on some idealized experience or concept which serves as a guiding ideology separate from reality. Like I’m thinking of moodboards like this.

Have secured tickets to You Can See Everything tonight. I’m so ready lmao

After interacting with more people from different backgrounds through my job, I have kinda started to realize why people talk about generational/class/race/sexuality/etc. differences and the way that changes how you navigate workplace tasks/conflicts.

Specifically: before this job, I had primarily worked in food service or a working class office setting (think like data entry/customer support). Actually working with people who are like boomers or gen x and/or have money made me realize I had mostly worked with poor gen x–zoomers before lol

(bravely) the Cracker Barrel redesign was fine. The way it was used throughout their products, ads, and menus was pretty good. The work arm/logo had some unnecessary padding but it was actually fine. Lol

Once when I was 16, I was feeling really shitty and so I put on some headphones to play “My Body is a Cage” by Arcade Fire and closed my eyes to cool off. Issue is, I didn't know the room was so quiet and the music could be so clearly heard by others, so everyone just saw me crying to Arcade Fire.

Posting this so it no longer has any power over me. I don’t remember what incited this but I had a really hard time as a teenager so I was probably justified in being really sad, it just haunts me that everybody heard me put on a song loudly as I like sobbed. That’s usually more of a private thing.

The term “midwest” is funny to me because it doesn’t make sense outside of a specific period of like US expansion/colonialism where that region was between “the west” and the colonies. Imo Midwest should be like, the Utah/Colorado/Wyoming region and Mideast should be what we now call the Midwest.

The way people will show you what they actually think about trans people and how much they actually value your presence in their life when you start hormones or get surgery and need support/community will always stick with me lol. I lost like 4 friends leading up to bottom surgery

As in, who is actually willing to support you/be understanding and not dismiss you as demanding or crazy if you have some complex feelings or new considerations. Who will see past their own hangups around transsexuals and treat you with respect/value your autonomy. It forces everything to come out.

I think about the Bauhaus every single day

I think the great irony of Bauhaus/Modernism is that it succeeded on an aesthetic level for like evil mega corporations and imperialist governments but not on its principles of better, accessible, mass-produced design, architecture, and art. Similar argument for Russian Constructivism imo.

(thinking out loud) I don’t know that there is a true, actual identity we all perfectly hold internally that will be constant regardless of place/time/material conditions. That’s gender essentialism. It’s always an interplay of society/culture that an individual contextualizes themselves within.

What are some horror movies from the past 10 years or so that you perverts (positive) recommend for me to watch? Asking because lean towards mostly watching older horror as it aligns more with my personal tastes, but I assume there’s cool stuff being made now that I just don’t know about.