12tone

All cis people on this site should be nicer to trans people facing existential threats I think. Just imo

DONE! Writing this script has been like pulling teeth but it's officially, finally, finished. Basically. A draft is finished, anyway. But the point is I can still organize thoughts into words, and that feels like a big win right now.

Still patiently waiting to be "left behind" by AI rather than it chasing me across every damn space like a slasher in a low budget flick.

There’s this thing people do where they’re surprised that a rapper has read a book or knows any music theory or something else “intelligent”. Anyway, I hate it. Thank you.

I don’t really care about the front end, but YouTube should allow me to see my actual uninflated views on the backend instead of the fake views. I shouldn’t have to go to a menu; it should be the primary number I see because it’s the one that matters to my career

DIG through the ditches and DIG through the ditches and DIG through the ditch and the ditch is done

Went to look up that Amazon "About You" thing everyone's posting about, but it turns out I've been doing too good a job remaining mysterious:

On Jacob Geller, on being both a public figure and a person, and on various levels of haunting of houses: docs.google.com/document/d/1...

the reason these people need to be stripped of almost all of their money is so that they stop thinking that it gives them the right to nominate themselves for the "benevolent dictator" position

A difficult thing about finally dialing in the correct antidepressant dose after almost two decades without them is now I have to relearn how to motivate myself without relying on depression.

The thing about your favorite youtubers is you don't know them. Not really. They're playing a character, and when their real-life behavior doesn't match the character, that's not a reason to downplay the seriousness of their actions. It just means there are sides of them they didn't want you to see.

Two things can be true: 1) we can believe in & fight for a world in which anyone should have a path to redemption for even the most heinous shit and 2) you guys only seem to hum & haw over this shit when victims of sexual violence are tapping out their triggered feelings on social media.

I think what I resent the most is that all of us, especially the women who worked with him, were a part of his rehabilitation (at least image-wise) without us ever getting to choose if that was something we wanted to participate in. He didn't let us or his audience make a choice. How ironic.

On Jacob Geller

This is musicology.

Really glad to see this response so quickly -- no equivocating, and it does not take a long time to do the right thing here. And yes, an acknowledgement that this hurts the people who know you, work with you. It's not easy for anyone involved.

i think it's good when people make things because i think it's good when people make things.

As an update, things have started to move again! Probably gonna be a couple weeks still before I can wrangle this into a script I'm happy with, but it feels good to be writing.

we live in a world where "humanity is rotten to the core" is a more tolerable idea than "capitalism is kinda busted" but what I love about "capitalism is kinda busted" is realizing every good thing that happens is in spite of capitalism because humans are that committed to doing good things

As part of an effort to fix this, I've been going back and watching some of my favorite 12tone videos, and y'know what? I think I might be kinda good at my job. Who knew?

it just makes me sad how totalizing and inescapable market logic seems to be for people, because i don't think it's very hard at all to imagine a more stable and equitable system. but a lot of people can't or won't accept the starting premise that american capitalism has been a resounding failure.