LeGurdah 🛡️🏳️‍🌈 ACAB

💜 AI "artists" will never be outsider artists, period. They may walk on the same road as an outsider artist like I, but they will never fundamentally put in the work nor appreciate it. There's a difference between making art outside of an institution... and "making" literal institutionalized slop.

🩹 We surrender.

🎉 Our mum is in the hospital due to pneumonia. As if our life couldn't spiral further and further downward, it broke through ANOTHER FLOOR. Gods... maintaining my composure in the face of everything is just fucking hard... 😖

🔔 We are not someone who does their work on time. But we *do* deliver.

🩹 No more. I surrender.

🩹 My heart is hollow. My mind is hollow. My will is hollow. *I* am hollow. Perishing feels like freedom. I wish I wasn't Atlas. Maybe then, I could die in silence. A death that's easier to beforget. Why am I still here? Why? Living feels like a cruel joke. Agony, the punchline.

The fact that we have to be afraid to market our games because of AI theft is a condemnation of every executive who has pushed for this cancer in our industry and art form. www.pcgamer.com/gaming-indus...

🩹 There *must* be games out there that use tracker music, right? Deus Ex does it so fucking beautifully -- and it's the kind of thing that still makes us excited for tracker music! music.youtube.com/watch?v=Rm9P...

🍀 My room is cloaked in the veil of night. I have my weak computer, and the lunacy of a madperson. Time to get some games programming shit done for my friends. We're a video games programmer... nay, video games *hacker,* for a reason! >:D WE WILL NOT YIELD! WE WILL NOT YIELD! WE! WILL! NOT! YIELD!

🧊 This GIF sums us up succinctly. It's funny because it's true!

🧊 I do not half-ass my code. Even freeware video games get as much love as our commercial equivalents in development.

The question major outlets have yet to really engage with, isn’t why are the French students protesting. But rather, why are the rest of us not taking to the streets, forming barricades, and burning down the institutions of elite oppression. Solidarity 🖤🏴❤️ www.theguardian.com/world/2026/o...

🧊 This, right here? This is one of the quintessential programming knowledges we carry with us moving forward, no matter what. Expect to see some of these crop up in our video game programming, given how critical performance is to gameplay. graphics.stanford.edu/~seander/bit...

🧊 Hotline Miami (+ its sequel,) Furi, Pizza Tower, and Windblown all live up to the saying "come for the music, stay for the game" for us. Bravely Default could sooner or later join this growing list of games. I hate that we never snagged this game about a decade ago! 😭

🧊 Holy shit, @sleepyhart.bsky.social funded our replacement PS5 controller, and it's shipping out to us right as we speak. Thank you, comrade! 😁 Finding this out via our email is at least giving us a good start to our day. ^^

🧊 Are truscum even using the sword emoji anymore? I don't know. I'm still keeping my shield emoji up, because it's just become an integral thing at this point.

💜 I'm tired. I'm tired and depressed. Bipolar disorder sucks.

💜 A friend once summed mania up as, to paraphrase her, "feeling like fighting God." And now here I am, literally feeling this spike of frenzied energy *and* wanting to fight God, and resisting the thought of doing so (because the asshole doesn't even exist for me to be able to fight him.)

🩹 The stress got to me. I'll be offline for the day.

So Danny Trejo was manipulated and tricked into being in Ben Shapiro's newest film. Holy shit.

🎉 Our mum and younger brother bickered again. We will never know peace in our rotten life until we perish. I *wish* we could just perish right now. At least *that* would be more peaceful than what we're living in right now.

🎉 We caught this image last night of the latest pull to the VisualBoyAdvance-M GitHub repo that was assisted by an LLM, and man, it's so fucking disappointing to learn. What THE FUCK??? I actually loved this emulator. 😭 (I wonder if I should just go and fucking fork it myself at this point.)

🔔 ...Fuck, I cannot sleep for the life of me. 😅 Blegh.

🔔 Do not, under any circumstances, refer to Holocaust deniers, lost cause myth believers, and other deniers of heinous historical shit as revisionists. They are *banking* on hiding behind formal language to legitimize their racism and other bigotries. Don't give them the easy way out.

🔔 I'll try to take it easy for the day -- so permit me to annoy you with this crowdfunding wishlist thingy for just this once! ...Please, we need a new PS5 controller.

🔔 I rolled "splitting headache" on the wheel of fortune today. Where's our sunglasses at, I'm already despising how today is turning out. v~v

🍀 I just learnt of an LLM-powered video game that, I shit you not, led to its 4-person development team taking out a bank loan to pay for additional tokens because of how many players were playing their demo. There is so much that's fucking wrong with that. I'm going to fucking scream!

double fine busted its union, alas kotaku.com/inside-the-f...

🍀 It's strange, being alone outside, at what is soon-to-be dusk. There is this tranquility. Yet it's like something is missing. It's... all so contradictory.

🍀 Trotskyism-Gramscianism rules.

Bex is seriously only 150 away from their goal like COME TF ON BLUESKY DO BETTER FOR BLACK FOLKS STOP IGNORING THEM FOR YOUR STUPID FANDOM SHIT IDK HOW TO TELL YALL YOU NEED TO *CARE* BOUT BLACK FOLKS ITS BEEN 2 FUCKING DAYS OF BLEEDING OUT NOW how much longer will we make them wait?! #BIPOCMA