AAAAHH-lex Plante 🐀👑

finally caught up on the last ten days or so of the stewtheus saga and idk i think this sums it up

god i love jealous scully every time mulder makes eye contact with a hot lady in the first 5 minutes of an episode i start rubbing my little fly hands together and saying “eh heh heh heh heh” in an exaggerated manner

anyway s5 was the best season so far by a lot excellent work guys congration you done it

i didn’t think i had alexithymia but i started crying out of nowhere on wednesday and only THURSDAY realized i was perhaps very sad. had to go on a full emotional archeological dig just to figure out what the fuck was going on. sobbing “i think i’m sad but i have no idea why”

just two hours of being asked things like “are you… lonely?” and thinking about it for a second to see if the idea made me cry or not. fucking absurd. i am normally quite good at understanding my feelings and where they’re coming from but i was absolutely blindsided. VERY strange. and annoying!!

just gotta get through tomorrow, and then sunday, and then i can start a new week

- vaccines took me out for two days - next two days i suddenly couldn’t walk because of a random tendonitis flare - next day, surprise emotional collapse wtf - felt a lot better today but then i suddenly had to take a family member to urgent care and take care of them lmao (they’re ok, just pain)

bro, the realization that a platonic friendship can be just as intimate as anything romantic, only there are no extra incentives to stay nor significant material consequences to leaving, and yet they choose to be there anyway for the sole desire of knowing you another day? such a trip, honestly

oh no... a horrible thought has just occurred to me. am i getting these recurring peroneal tendonitis flare ups from almost exclusively sitting like this for years and years and years????

keezy in chat i think "what is dead man's bones again?" give it a goog and immediately start laughing

the biggest sign that i’m super off-kilter this week (other than the random waves of crushing despair for no discernible reason, like that gif of paul rudd at the computer going “[scrunch] ok i’m ok now”) is that i’ve been sucking ASS at daily orbs many days in a row and it’s making me SO SO SO MAD.

also the fact that it makes me want to throw my phone across the room is probably another sign

the biggest sign that i’m super off-kilter this week (other than the random waves of crushing despair for no discernible reason, like that gif of paul rudd at the computer going “[scrunch] ok i’m ok now”) is that i’ve been sucking ASS at daily orbs many days in a row and it’s making me SO SO SO MAD.