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real talk: I didn't know the whole puppygirl thing would mean so much to me. First it was just "oh, animal ears/collars are cute/hot" Then it was the headpats, then then being called puppy, the mannerisms, the barking, and now it/its pronouns are staring at me every night

Bleh, my mesh top arrived, and it doesn't fit me like I hoped it would. =/ Well, at least now I know. Trying to find clothes that look good on me is so haaard 😖

On the one hand I failed a class. On the other hand I got 96% on the midterm for another class! Taking asynchronous online classes is such a hit or miss, some professors will just not comunícate and before you know it you already failed the class. Next time I'll avoid async =/

tomino didnt create cybernewtypes just so you all could say mechsploitation was invented by armored core 6

still thinking about last Thursday's (8th) rave at Nowadays. Like, I went bc it's Octo Octa so ofc I'm gonna go, but the RA page said it was going to be DnB, which I'm not a fan of, but I thought "it's Octo Octa, its gonna be amazing" and IT WAS! It was lonely, tho.

Went to Daiso today cause I was looking for a container to store rice, and ended up buying $50 worth of stuff 💸🥺 It has so much cool stuff! And it's all like, good quality for the price. Those $2.50 for most items really adds up fast ^^;

I keep hearing about Digger and at this point I might watch it just to find out what it is about, because everyone is saying how like, indescribable it is?? Like, they are not even saying its good, they are saying it is hard to describe, which really piques my interest.

Basement security is now taking a look at your glasses to check if they have cameras, which is great that they are taking this issue seriously, but it's sad that pervert glasses are so popular that this is an issue.

Man it sucks to be a social pariah and not be able to go to music shows cause the other trans girls WILL insult you and ask you to leave. Been thinking on moving to Philly and starting all over again, but that city becomes a ghost town at 2 AM. 2!! On a weekend!!

I'm really considering being a recluse again. The whole "go out and socialize" thing has gone so terribly wrong that maybe I should just give up on the idea of having friends and just play video games alone and sleep. Maybe I'll try again once I get a handful of surgeries.

I am so tired. Had a dream where people I miss appeared. I miss so many people. I've slept so much in the last 24 hours. I miss talking to people. I think I'm going to go back to bed.

movie 3 predictions

Called a boobjob surgeon I got recommended from Mount Sinai Hospital, and the soonest consultation date she has is on APRIL. IN 7 MONTHS!! So screw that I'm gonna go for a regular boobjob surgeon, not a trans one. It's a boobjob it's not rocket science nor a vaginoplasty

come fly with me !

Tried talking to the other trans girls after the punk show and got immediately left out. I'm staying home tonight, I don't want to be hurt again 😖

I just realized, since I got red hair now, and I'm keeping it that way for the foreseeable future, that means I get to change my hair to red in games! Oh this is gonna be fun!!

I need to look up if fishnets actually make you warmer. Would be nice to continue being able to wear my short shorts and crop tops as it gets colder.

Last night's Jeff Rossenstock show was so much fun!! Gosh, the energy, the mosh pit, pushing and the being pushed, it all feels so good!! I need to check his Bandcamp for once so I can buy his music and learn the lyrics of a song or 2 for next time. Brooklyn Paramount > Rooftop at Pier 17 tho, imo

I commissioned a new profile pic! Thank you so much @pasteldisaster.bsky.social! It now reflects all the piercings I have and my red hair. Oh, and the fact that I'm a dog now :3 I told her to draw me as I am, but she insisted that I look like this?? Which honestly makes me blush, I look pretty >///<

Lambrini Girls is having a free daytime show next Thursday in NYC!! drop.cobrand.com/d/LambriniGi...

I did so many medical phone calls and emails and messages and stuff yesterday, that now I'm at the step where I can only wait to get answers back, or for the appointment days to come. I still need to start doing the phone calls for boobjob and other surgeries, tho. It's effort!🥺

I so need someone to try to take good pictures of me for Grindr. Either a really good photographer or a miracle worker. My Grindr pics, and well, the pics on dating apps, are all like over a year old. Back when I didn't have piercings and my hair was still natural colored.

lol they did it, they made the Vape That Is Good For You. Like, I've heard of drug dealers cutting coke and molly with Vitamin B12 cause it gives you energy, so I imagine a B12 vape could give you the energy, but the concept is just so funny regardless.

Wait I was in class what happened?

RT if you’ve never had a tab of ChatGPT open, period.

I did NOT like Dog Movie / Puppygirl by Henry Hanson. Both movies heavily rely on cringe and awkwardness, and I just didn't roll with that. Both movies also don't like, advance the narrative much? At least Dog Movie ends with Bloo having SOME growth, but Puppygirl just...ends

Had a dream today where some hot popular trans girls turned me into a vampire, like them, and ngl, I now want to write a story about this. Reading all of the Twilight saga the same year the Twilight movie came out, the same year I read The Vampire Armand by Anne Rice left a mark.

Trip to Philly for Uproar (furry rave) was a success! It was lonely at the beginning, but someone recognized me and presented me to people, and I ended up having so much fun!! And i made out with hot folx, including someone I've had a crush for some time now!! 🥰

So I got told I can't get insurance cause I don't have SSN, so that means no FFS (too expensive to pay out of pocket), and I'll have to pay full price for everything. Now I have to figure out who to go for surgeries like breast augmentation and BBL. But all the surgeons are good?

Had a nightmare where my hair went back to being black and in the dream I panicked a lot. I'm pretty sure that's a sign that I should keep it red. It is a shame that permanent red is not as vibrant as semi-permanent red, tho. Bc of that mine fades over time, but at least it still stays red.

Had to go all the way to Long Island to get this beauty, but gosh, a yellow Pelican 1400 case for $60. It's built like a bunker and has a rubber ring, but it's HEAVY. Hopefully it will fit a 60% keyboard with a Raspberry Pi and a screen, going to make it into a cyber deck.

me regarding just about literally everything ever if i'm being honest

did i ever post this on bsky i was just thinking about it again

I might have to bite the bullet and just start going to the cinema on my own. I don't like watching movies alone, but no one wants to watch movies with me, and there's a trans movie festival thing happening soon! 🥺

I'm changing majors since I'm not good enough at math for Computer Science, but I now have to decide between Computer Information Systems and Computer Networks, but idk what to choose and I'm afraid to make the bad choice and I want to cry and I hate being too dumb for CS 😭 help

I wish I looked like the others girls. I want to be included in groups and hang out with the other trans girls.

They put doors in all the bathrooms at Basement, it's crazyyy. And I think it's a good move? Like, it means bathroom stall waits should be shorter, right?

made this edit in a fit of rage

I took my Concerta 54mg, tried waiting like an hour for it to kick in, and fell asleep. I don't get it, does the pill only work on certain days? Or are some of the pill placebos? Cause when I took it on Tuesday I was able to do so much stuff, but now it does nothing.

I know I'm stoned but this top makes my boobs look kinda nice

to my oomfs

I think I'll tell my psychiatrist that 54mg of Concerta / Methylphenidate ER is what works. I've done all the errands I've been postponing for over a week in a single day. And the day is not over yet. She already said she's not giving me Adderall anyways, and the next thing to try is Modafinil

Being a weirdo tranny is of God. Everytime a tranny dresses crazy, talks loud, is visible the cosmos remembers why it was made.

Since when is pad Thai spicy?? I'm sweating and my nose is dripping and my eyes are tearing up and my lips feel bad tingly and this is awful.