Vepsilon

No one interacts with my posts unless they're having a meltdown (because they got called out for being an ass), maybe 1 in 20 of my posts get liked once, no one talks to me, and every day I see more AI and worse takes on my feed. I'm probably deleting this account in a week. I'm just so tired of it.

I think they officially ruined bluesky. There are way too many hateful, slobbering mongrels spreading hate and judgment. Simply the most worthless human beings who only live to stroke their own egos at other's expense. You can't go anywhere without them. I'm tired of blocking half the people I see.

I hate waking up and immediately shoving the thoughts of the most shriveled brain, self stroking, shrill shrieking dumbshits into my face, I need to get off this website. We need a website that screens people again. I'm just done. The utterly mindless hatred just got to me today.

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BrooklynDad_Defiant!

@mmpadellan.bsky.social

ACCURATE AF. Don't even get me started on their weird obsession with drinking people's tears, and delight in the suffering of others.

People who make it their entire personality to hate vegetarians and vegans are the most worthless fart huffing windbags. If you're gonna demand everyone sees you as superior why not actually accomplish ANYTHING. No, its easier to fuss and piss myself on social media because someone eats different.

"Weaahh you don't get enough protien without eating bodies" Beans and lentils. "How can you cook beans and lentils if you're homeless??" RAW MEAT?? Excuse me? Like what planet are you from where its easier to cook meat than veggies and beans??? Plus I've BEEN homeless. Fuck these people to death.

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Brant Reeves

@bireeves95.bsky.social

It’s not nearly as advanced as they want you to think….

I usually just consider myself a man at this point but I'm keeping "transmasc" in the bio because it makes a certain man on here really angry, and I have him blocked, but I still giggle at the thought of him just seething and pulling out his phone to hate-post about people like me to his sycophants.

Before anyone gets the idea, this is something I've been turning over in my head for a while and has nothing to do with the recent news and is in no way a defense of any of the predators that we've heard about. I hope every rapist has their lives ruined if they're not just entirely castrated.

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I know no one wants to hear this but the culture where we always tell daughters that all men are evil crazy monsters made it really really really hard for me to transition and I would have avoided actual decades of suicide attempts if I hadn't been taught to think men aren't *literally just people*

I'm genuinely tired of having to constantly doubt I'm transitioned enough or masculine enough or not-woman enough because I'm moving in a direction that people blindly hate that we refuse to define as anything but negative and disgusting. Even when I started T I was afraid of masculinizing too much.

Maybe this whole thread is "men's rights" or whatever but I'm just so tired. I'm exhausted, it took so long to even consider I could be a man. I'm still nonbinary but that's also just a nebulous, self-defined personhood. I want to *feel* like a good man. I need guidance and role models, not disgust.

We should be teaching boys what they CAN grow up into (or transition into). All I hear is "I hate men who do this". No wonder some of them look for role models that tell them they can grant them freedom. A man doesn't need to be breadwinner or head of the house to have positive masculine traits.

Femininity is soooo spelled out. It was incredibly easy to pretend to be a woman pre-T. But my entire view of masculinity was deer locking antlers and the man working a 9-5 for his family he never saw. Sweat, lust, aggression, stoicism thinly hiding a natural born desire to abuse. That was it.

The thing that had to happen to me was dating a man who did everything in his power to show me he wasn't dangerous. And he had to do that because my first relationship WAS a dangerous sex pest who pressured me and demolished my boundaries. Because I was taught *that is normal, that is what men do*.

Now I should state that man ultimately failed me in other ways and I had to move on BUT the point is that I had had decades of training to view all of these attributes of men OVER their personhood. (I'm not saying if someone is a rapist they deserve any respect or anything, rapists should be shot.)

And yeah, there are a lot of terrible men to point to as examples, which is why I spent 17-24 hating being a woman and just assuming that was normal because I had already decided I 'didn't relate' to men because I was good natured and polite and strong willed. I had no good examples that mattered--

Because I was taught that no matter how he acts, even the kindest, softest man was actually holding back a violent crazy pervert on the inside. So how could I be one of those? Now, I look to men like Tom Holland and other sweet, bubbly men and think "thank god I found my archetype."

And I'm not saying "no one wants to hear this" because I feel shame about having this view, more that everyone is so much more satisfied with their demonization of all men ever than they would be teaching boys that they have the potential to grow up into something that isn't a rage demon sex pest.

We lost something as a society when we started punishing people super harshly for beating asses for anti-social behavior. If you play music out loud on the train someone should be able to slam your head into the wall a few times without consequence, because you deserve it.

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I'm not leading the much needed uprising because I'm a destitute disabled person trying to stay fed and housed. You aren't leading the uprising because you work 50 hours a week to pay off two cars, a single family house, and feed three dogs. We are not actually in the same boat.

It's so funny to me when contrarian weirdos like this just get completely ignored. Like, you're quote tweeting yourself at a stranger who's just posting a quote agreeing with the original post. What are you actually doing lmao

It is fully legal in the state of oregon to rent someone an apartment that you provably KNOW is infested with bugs, you just have to fix the infestation after the tenant reports it. What a disgusting, deeply sick society we live in. Landlords should be rounded up and thrown into a volcano.

Portland government is such a joke. I reported the roach problem (happening since we moved in) to the city health department and at first they just said "well your property manager said they sprayed, that should do it" when I specifically mentioned *in my report* that it didn't work! Maybe read it!

What I said in my report, and my partner had to repeat on the phone, is that they aren't spraying enough units. Later we get a letter on our door, they know reported them and that they're gonna do a building-wide spray in November. This place had dead roaches in it when we moved in!! November???

Whatever you do, if you have a place to live that is *at all* habitable, do not rent with CCC. All this fluff about supportive this and case manager that, they knowingly sold me an apartment that is infested with dangerous pests!! Fuck this city for letting this happen to vulnerable people.

Hannah Shelley, MLIS (Maggots, Lycanthropes & Ice Skeletons)

My apartment building manager actually left us a real life letter asking us to not kill the roaches infesting our apartment because that way the poison spray could get back to their nest. Like mhmm ok bitch how about we just don't sell people apartments infested with bugs? Let's start there. :)))

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@hannahshelley.site

Please stop anthropomorphizing computers. They cannot "run" a program, because they don't have legs

@geftokingmongoose.bsky.social

I'm so physically anxious I should probably see a doctor but if I miss any more class I'll get dropped so I'm forced to do my best today barely breathing with blurry vision and numb hands. This is an inhumane way to make someone live. I wanna throw myself off a bridge.

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Gef the Toking Mongoose

The people quote posting this being like "good on him for not tolerating abuse" or "so many toxic people to block in the replies" are pathetic, whining crybabies that need given a wedgie and stuffed into a locker. You people are practically incapable of changing your own diapers.

USER WAS BLOCKED FOR THIS POST@blockedforthispost.bsky.social

Wow, its so professional that the head of trust and safety is running away from the people trying to tell you they dont trust this site because it isnt safe. Youre a joke. Go get a different job so someone can actually do yours. I can get you in at a housekeeping job. Might be more your style

Turns out it was "the plumber" and its back on now that I'm home because I almost had an anxiety attack. Really cool how it's illegal to do this unless it's "an emergency maintenance issue" so basically any time they want they can just take water away and call it that and we just have to suffer.

Vepsilon@vepsilon.bsky.social

The cold water just.... doesn't work in my apartment this morning. The shower doesn't come on at all. Guess I'm going to class stinky 😒. I cannot believe these people are charging almost $1000 for this shithole, Portland 'affordable' housing is a joke and a scheme. So tired of this constant BS.

Trying to tell myself that I'm brave for crashing and burning for a whole week because at least I tried to push myself (knowing I was probably going to crash and burn)

I'm like actually going to cry in public today I wish I could call out sick so badly I'm so god damn tired of being dirty and stinking and being late and not being able to afford anything ever no matter how hard I work! Fuck this life! Fuck Portland and fuck America for making this happen to people.

Aaand late to class because google maps lied again. "Left 2 minutes ago" no it didn't. I was watching the stop as I came down the hill for a full 4 minutes and saw no train. So it was either several minutes early to it's stop or it didn't come at all. Either way now I'm accountable for being late :)

I have a screenshot now of google maps showing me the train leaves at a certain time and it saying "walk, 7 minutes" AND THEN TELLING ME TO LEAVE 5 MINUTES BEFORE IT ARRIVES. WHY CAN I NOT REPORT THIS. WTAF.

I can't imagine going to work as one of the three sane SC justices and not like, poisoning the fucking coffee. Like are we serious? Am I just built different why are these people standing by and watching??

They fucked up my hygiene last week too because the only laundry room on my floor flooded for some reason and I couldn't do laundry for like 3 days. No other options provided, just, get fucked people who pay us money. Cause like what are a bunch of stupid poors gonna do? Makes me wanna burn shit.

cbc.caJudge tosses drug trafficking convictions for B.C. compassion club founders after constitutional challenge | CBC NewsA British Columbia Supreme Court judge has ruled in favour of two harm-reduction activists convicted of drug trafficking who argued they were doing it to reduce the harms caused by toxic drugs.

My discover feed is broken is that happening to anyone else or did I do a thought crime

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Margaret Killjoy

@margaret.bsky.social

Replying to @margaret.bsky.social

honestly crying about this. been a long time since i've read good political news. www.cbc.ca/news/canada/...

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Andrew Schreck

@andrewschreck.bsky.social

Jay Edidin@edidin.bsky.social

I would like to see more men talking about how to and peer pressuring each other into calling out misogyny and rape culture. Going against social norms is hard, and it helps to share tips and support.

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Kat Tenbarge

@kattenbarge.bsky.social

There’s something to be said for how most of the political spectrum can unite around hounding some lesbians over niche drama in their spaces but huge segments of society are silent about pervasive campus rape impacting a huge population of primarily youngwomen

@readerofbannedbook.bsky.social

I don't understand how so many people that don't understand dead names work in government and medical offices. Yes I realize no one ever updated my name and you just now found my info under another name. No you do not need to refer to me as that name or say it like 10 fucking times. Christ!!

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