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Anyway, clean-shaven now... the fact that I don't know how to smile in a not creepy way still drives me mad.

Ayyyyy... nice.

Clean shaven again. It really sucks having almost totally white facial hair at 48... I definitely just took a decade off my perceived age.

I think I'm on the verge of another embouchure injury... I was fighting for my life in band rehearsal this evening, on easy music. I may have to take another break, and not by choice.

Am I so old and destestable that I can't even get likes back on Barq from people I find interesting and like? Is it really just Grindr for fluffs now? God, for a fandom that's supposed to be so easy to find friends in I've been stymied at every turn...

I follow way too many people that make me impossibly horny. I need to stop torturing myself.

Scrolling my Bluesky while in a Chick-fil-A, fully oblivious to the fact that my feed may have naked men or yiff art... and then realizing it just as I see something spicy come up... 😭😆

I have survived another orchestra concert where I am the lone horn player, and have to play like I'm four horns. The music is easy enough, but holy fuck it's a workout. I'm so glad I didn't do the solo tonight... pretty sure I would die in the last piece (Night on Bald Mountain).

Trying to nap...

I really need a friend or five that will allow me to hide out at their place when the world gets too big for me. Really could've used one today... I need a break from reality for a little while. 😭

I SO thought today was going to be quiet... boy was I wrong.

Lonely. Again.

MCP hell has been tamed. Made a gateway server that gathers more than 132 tables across 11 business domains on more than 20 MCP servers into a single point. Supported by a comprehensive metadata catalog that agents can parse through to find the right table entities efficiently... I fucking cooked.

I am in MCP hell... 11 business domains, 272 entity tools, need as few connectors created as possible. Time to make an 'effin gateway, I guess. Data teams have gigabytes of import data that they have to soft through before go-live in two weeks. Guess who volunteered to enable that?

It's so nice outside this morning! Sitting on the patio area at the office after being buried for the last two hours.

RIP Bioware. FUCK EA. That is all.

Left this status up in my office before I left... :3

And this... horrifying and disgusting. The GOP needs to condemn this and disavow Vivek Ramaswamy as a candidate. Anything less is criminal, and the entire party should burn. youtube.com/shorts/DlH74...

Lonely.

First concert of the week down... now the big one pf Friday where I'm going to be a *gulp* SOLOIST!! Very nervous...

Bro. Katie lasted less than half a Scaramucci. SMFH

I added a couple of silly 'lil magnets to my office whiteboard :3

Apparently, the line workers whose office is next to my favorite coffee shop have nothing better to do this morning than to randomly set off mortar fireworks. My soul has separated from my body twice in the last fifteen minutes.

Using a muzak version of Right Now in your commercial as you zoom out on a Coke bottle is some low shit, Walgreens. That's the Crystal Pepsi song... and anything less than Sammy singing it is an affront.

I seriously need people to hang out with... I need another reason to escape my house other than for rehearsals or performances.

This is my kind of energy.

... and home. I'm beat. This has been a long day.

Next on the homecoming weekend tour... (I'm sitting in the bar so as not to embarrass the kid...)

Homecoming dance chauffeur duties tonight... Took them down to a local resort spot on the river for pictures, deposited them at the dance, and driving them Chili's after. Yay. Sorry, not sharing photos... but be assured they looked adorable.

The game was a disaster... my daughter said they lost... 58-0. Yes. That's right. You know your school's football team is bad when your own classmates boo you.

Doing the dad thing of waiting patiently for the homecoming game to end. (The other kid wanted to go)

Texting weird shit to my 16 y/o while she's on the phone with friends, just to hear her reaction was the therapy I didn't know I needed tonight.

I want someone to look at me the way my cats do when I hold their favorite teaser toy.

I guess we'll find out now who would win that fight between God and Ditka. My money's on Ditka. RIP, Coach.

Developers that expect me, a resource that works across the entire company's ecosystem, to keep track of the services they asked me to enable for them. How is that fair to me, and the fact that I have my own projects that I have to keep track of? I have a tiny badger brain, there's only so much...

Oh, well, this is a thing now... getartcraft.com/apps

I think it's time to re-program my feeds. The constant news updates and all the state of the world has worn me down psychologically. I'm finding a bit of that cynical asshole in me is getting a bit louder. I don't like him, so maybe starving him out will shut him up for good.

I post cringe replies to AD posts because either A) I'm being silly, or B) I'm genuinely turned on by the image and the toll of being hard up for more than a year is real. It's on the reader to decide which... 😋

Well, we got an early Christmas present from the MIL. Mrs. B's car is fixed ($780, rather than the $1300 I was expecting), and I'll be driving that while she takes the rental. Hopefully we'll hear back on the van by the end of the week, and then I have to start running numbers on what I can get.

Car shopping is exhausting.

Well, my morning has already been productive. I collected a "sample" and boxed it up to go back to the lab. Really fun stuff.