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81. missed connections with tall girls / Gwen Aube As above, but it's the cybernetworked Discord dirt of this one that works - less the ephemera of the rave and more the tenuous limbos of the midWest. A kind of solidarity that elicits groans whilst on Twitter but made me cry versified on the page

80. E / Noa Micaela Fields I've become in the last couple years basically allergic to the freewheeling excitement/utopianism inevitable in the poetry of early transition - and this is not an exception. But! Zukofsky as a misheard muse charts a line here, makes remembering all that less ambivalent

79. The Death of the Clinic / Benoit Loiseau A book that rendered a hair more tolerable some of the realities facing my(our) being shunted further out of care in this country, without stooping to the dishonesty of reassurance. Keep learning from the hope lost before, the only way forwards

77. Guide / Dennis Cooper And here is where the pure feeling of Try starts sluicing right out of the cycle. Characters and what they undergo as manipulated pawns on a textual board, and Cooper, a voice obsessively operating/operated by his own machine, himself stuck there right alongside them

76. The Prison-House of Language / Fredric Jameson Remains kind of impossible to accept how brilliant Fred was. Buzzed w excitement on every page

75. The Woman With One Hundred Faces / Katherine Rowland Devoured. Unbearable lifelong narcissism of the soul, subtended by the unflagging exasperated devotion of the men Nin circled herself with - their dance became for me more magnetic + moving than hers. (She really did fuck her dad one time)

Spent the evening reading Carson back and forth w her, thank you Anne thank you Anne

yessssss

Patti Harrison on Infowars every Thursday never kill yourself

And dialogue aside, man is one of *the* undersung prose stylists of the 20th century

73. The Melancholy of Resistance / Laszlo Krazanhorkai Something happens to time when reading this one, it's like treacle. Fucked up European village, everyone's a lunatic or a bastard, there's a whale, etc. A dozen pages at a time dedicated to a thought that flickers into crisis into etc. 💯

72. Strange Hotel / Eimear McBride Failed to read two years ago, before I knew McBride was the kind of author each of whose books teaches you to hear the voice of the next. And, there now, I recognise in the rhythm of this one the displacements of age that I am just beginning to register in myself

Stating and thereby actualising that I will be at Unsound Poland next year. Slightly calibrating every angle of my life towards this as an eventuality. Thinking loudly

Also snagged a ticket to an event on Halloween at which Dennis Cooper will be present it's Meet Your Heroes 2026 everyone

Just saw in 35mm for the first time since I became a woman whose inescapably strong feelings have made her go psychotic before and Kidman in this is a lot of what I would think can't exist in film. All in the behind the eyes, the shaking of it apart but, of course, keeping it together. Delightful!

They don't want to prescribe you Elvanse because they know you'll become an unstoppable force if you take it late in the day and get stoned in the evening. You'd be too powerful

Love climbing. Simple as

Will have, in the same week, cliff climbed on the coast, been turned into a pincushion by the Russian and gotten a rare book cataloguing gig 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

71. Which As You Know Means Violence / Philippa Snow The sheer excitement of discovering this book exists carried me through the read, but unfortunately as a collection of essays it's pretty limp + redundant. Little you couldn't unravel yrself in an afternoon of spelunking on Wikipedia

on.soundcloud.com/OfEPFE4mr2xR... First few years of 9/11 glow really made techno hit different

Went to the vampire goth music play party w the Russian domme saw over the course of the night a roving group of beautiful succubuses use random men as chairs & footstools whilst we chatted shortly getting as many needles as possible put in me balance has been restored