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btw I've been super inactive bc my classes absolutely fucked me up for a bit. Ended up dropping my CS major half bc of the workload and half bc of resentment towards the tech industry. I got to take a minor to benefit from what I've already done but god.

I don't want to guilt or anything, but I feel like its better to mention that kind of thing and not just rot in my issues alone lmao. Especially bc I'm absolutely certain I'm not alone in that stuff.

btw I've been super inactive bc my classes absolutely fucked me up for a bit. Ended up dropping my CS major half bc of the workload and half bc of resentment towards the tech industry. I got to take a minor to benefit from what I've already done but god.

Validating and infuriating to get to the point of breaking and being offered the chance to give up for the sake of your well being. Glad I talked to my advisor but I hate it here.

with both janka and shadowmilk, my "i will rip you to pieces and we'll both like it" ships, i have this reoccuring vision of them promising to hunt each other down. "you can run and hide, but i will find you" ...which immediately gets interpreted as "i will never abandon you. i will always be near."

with both janka and shadowmilk, my "i will rip you to pieces and we'll both like it" ships, i have this reoccuring vision of them promising to hunt each other down. "you can run and hide, but i will find you" ...which immediately gets interpreted as "i will never abandon you. i will always be near."

call me john projection because theyre just like me fr

with both janka and shadowmilk, my "i will rip you to pieces and we'll both like it" ships, i have this reoccuring vision of them promising to hunt each other down. "you can run and hide, but i will find you" ...which immediately gets interpreted as "i will never abandon you. i will always be near."

theres also the important aspect for shamimi at least that straight up kindness feels fake, so without the feral edge the message doesnt land. he needs someone who can take him at his worst and still insist on being there. he needs that more raw expression of absolute dedication.

with both janka and shadowmilk, my "i will rip you to pieces and we'll both like it" ships, i have this reoccuring vision of them promising to hunt each other down. "you can run and hide, but i will find you" ...which immediately gets interpreted as "i will never abandon you. i will always be near."

its a very specific thing and maybe ive brought it up before, but it haunts me and its very juicy. to everyone else this looks like a completely unhinged threat, its mostly meant as a threat, but to a dumbass hellbent on self destructing in one way or another (jabber/smc) the violence is...