kerry (they/them)

kerry (they/them)

@sillimancer.bsky.social

kerrigan o.s. (they/them) || 35/x/USA || person who likes art, games, music, books, and every living thing on planet earth || the "fat funny guy" bit character in a b-tier 90s sitcom ☕ ko.url.lol/ko-fi 🎁 throne.com/ankerrigan 🌐 sillimancer.straw.page

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think my pet banana is pissed at me guys tried to put another pokemon in another halloween costume and paint it with mixed results lol. I had a harder time with this one but I think it's because my eye is evolving faster than my hand. just gonna have to practice painting more 😌 #art #pokemon

pumpkoffing sparked a great fakemon design discussion in the group chat today and so I share my own contribution, designed roughly 2 hours after the discussion ended because I got sidetracked and then colored the first sketch after I insisted I would not 😌 #art #pokemon #fakemon

kerry (they/them)@sillimancer.bsky.social

been putting pokemon in halloween costumes as "please for the love of god finish an illustration" practice and on my third attempt I finally did it! pumpkin koffing. a pumpkoffing, if you will. #art #pokemon

designing fakemon and a region and stuff has been so fun and I still haven't decided how far I'm going to run with this but I think as a project it would make a really fun romhack. I do not want to make a romhack though. certainly not by myself but really not at all lol.

my compromise is that I'm just going to work on the worldbuilding and then make a game design doc I can keep in my back pocket in case I ever decide to try or find a collaborator to work with, cuz it'd be a lot of asset making too and pixel art is fun but not THAT fun you feel me

up at 4am posting messy comics that make sense to no one but me because they're of characters I invented and are acting out a scene that doesn't exist from a story that doesn't exist. #art #comics

been putting pokemon in halloween costumes as "please for the love of god finish an illustration" practice and on my third attempt I finally did it! pumpkin koffing. a pumpkoffing, if you will. #art #pokemon

kind of oppressive and problematic that I don't have a spare like $200 to fill my car's gas tank and then go get a decadent pho lunch and then go to the farm and spend a small fortune on baked goods and perhaps a walk through the petting zoo I think they have open right now

was gonna make a financially irresponsible decision (spend $25 on a pho lunch) but then I saw gas was over $4 so I turned around and went home 😌 you really save so much money in this economy by not having any in the first place!

update I ended up thrifting shoes on vinted for roughly the same amount as gas + a pho lunch would have been and I lowkey needed new shoes anyway so this was probably the more responsible use of that money 😌 not nearly as delicious to eat though 😔

please understand that the only thing that has ever kept me away from Jungle Jim's for this long is that it's literally on the opposite end of the state and a 300 mile drive to a Spend Money Factory is kind of a big ask when you're turbo poor *and* gas is $4 a gallon

anyway I love you Ohio in another timeline maybe I might have been an Ohio travel writer but unfortunately Americans can't read anymore and I'm too camera shy for vlogging 😔

had to get a thyroid biopsy today (sounds scarier than it is I promise) and, you know, it turns out getting stabbed in the neck 10 times with various needles will leave you a bit sore after!

had to get an MRI of my butt bones today and I didn't really notice when I got my last MRI cuz I was actively recovering from a brain bleed but it turns out getting beamed with magnet lasers for half an hour will really make your head and body feel weird

anyway I finally watched the og Carrie movie all the way through for the first time tonight and it was good! not great, but Carrie White the character is my specialest girl and Sissy Spacek's performance is nothing short of legendary

I think I lucked out having my first parasocial relationship with an internet-famous person being with someone who to this day keeps his private life very private and has a clear demarcation in his life between who he is as a person and his Job (gamer on youtube).

people who cut their teeth on this new kind of celebrity via twitch have it so much harder because you get way more direct access to that person but at the end of the day that's not your friend. that's an entertainer. you are audience. shows can be interactive. you are watching a show.

medication side effects are actively killing me but I also recently discovered that roblox has a geography guessing game and I have geography autism so demolishing strangers on the internet is at least keeping my mental health in order

this is half a joke but it also really is one of the only things helping me keep it together while feeling so miserable. the disabilities are really disabling this month. it sucks.

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I think I have more sketches lying around but these ones at least have notes to translate the mess, I love my fashion girls! the left drawings were done on different canvases so they ended up at different heights which is killing me lmao, the right side is more accurate

they don't 100% have names yet but I do have a fair chunk of their story mapped out, it's a little bit romance, a little bit coming-of-age, and a little bit a mystery. very inspired by things like Pita-Ten and The Lovely Bones and also kind of the power of social media to do good?

(uncle "derry girls" colm voice) so t'was on the quizilla, you'd go on the quizilla and take your quiz sure as on uquiz today. but the difference, see, was quizilla would let yourself see all the results after--and not just some little distribution graph, no, you could read the descriptions as well-

medication side effects continue to be side effecting and I was warned that 1) this could happen and 2) it'll (hopefully) be temporary as my body adjusts but it's been a few days now and I'm not sure I can take much more of this

I have a follow-up with the prescriber in exactly 2 weeks so I've decided to just keep suffering until then unless it gets worse. if it does get worse I'm going to just go ahead and blow up the whole earth and end everyone's suffering forever if that's cool.

watched a local cop car stop at a red light and then turn their lights and sirens on just long enough to run that same red light, shutting them off the second they crossed the intersection. then a few seconds later I heard them do it again at the red light two blocks ahead. my tax dollars at work!

when I hear people talking about how climate change has doomed our planet I think about how when I was in middle school my entire science curriculum was about how greedy capitalists ruined the Mahoning River but then we realized that was Bad and started cleaning it up. Cuyahoga too. and Lake Erie!

update I was perusing the cleveland and mayo clinic websites reading about my symptoms and they basically all coincide with side effects of a medication I recently started taking an increased dose of 😌 I actually hate pharmacology I thought this shit was supposed to make me better not worse!

kerry (they/them)@sillimancer.bsky.social

felt kinda weird when I went to bed last night and today I woke up soooo dizzy 😵 don't like that!

I was preparing to drag myself back into the mines today and then my mom was like "actually can we push this deadline by a week" (it was originally in 2 days) and I almost fell to my knees and wept for joy yeah I think an extra week will work for me no prablem 👍

kerry (they/them)@sillimancer.bsky.social

call me an early 2000s era web designer because I'm putting everything in fucking tables!!!!!!!!!!!! tables everywhere forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sick of everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I also managed to condense two future doctor appointments into one which is gonna save me a ton of gas and headache and if you're thinking "wow that's a lot of great news for one day" you'd be right! but fear not, I also have to delay a car repair cuz the mechanic forgot to order a part 😌

the desktop publishing saga continues: I have given up on scribus and am now using LibreOffice Impress. yes the powerpoint knockoff. believe it or not it is going better but only now that I've given up on getting paragraph styles to work.

call me an early 2000s era web designer because I'm putting everything in fucking tables!!!!!!!!!!!! tables everywhere forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sick of everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was so productive yesterday and did so many hard things that I've been putting off for [loud coughing to cover up the word "months"] and I think it was because I took the prescribed amount of my adhd meds instead of half of that. could mean nothing!

we'll never know though because I'm currently ~*~between psychiatric medication managers~*~ because the one that originally took me months to find and who was awesome left her practice 😔 top 10 anime betrayals like if you cry every time (I'm working on finding a new one dw 👍)

unlocked the ability to cook pasta in the rice cooker. turns out it's pretty much just as easy as cooking rice in a rice cooker. I don't know why it took 35 years for me to figure that out but it is what it is.

😌 I overslept and they're closed now so I have to try again tomorrow anyway, I love being busted and unwell

kerry (they/them)@sillimancer.bsky.social

man I gotta make more phone calls and appointments tomorrow and I don't even have anything to bribe myself with 😔

had one of those days where I felt like I was passing every skill check and everything was going better than expected! all balanced by the discovery that I missed a fairly important appointment today 🥴 and it was 100% my fault. alas! it was still a darn good day otherwise 😌