SanyaWaffles

6 Aug 2023

I guess I should formally announce my presence. Greetings all, I'm Sanya. I'm the CEO of a quaint little game studio I founded, and am interested in Meteorology and the sciences in general. Me and my studio are making a game ATM, called Project Absentia.

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www.paypal.com/paypalme/Ice... taking donations because I'm out of money for the last three days of the month and ran out of actual proper food good news is my insurance woes are resolved mostly, so I think I'll be fine hereon out come November.

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What I'm wearing for a Halloween party I'm going to this Thursday. Cyberpunk citizen from the future resisting against AI slop overlords.

"chatcbt can you breathe for me" [dies of hypoxia]

I'm probably not the first one to make that joke and idc. I'll do it again.

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#Doom #Modding

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That Tom Hall

@thattomhall.bsky.social

#quakecon folks - thanks for the Merch! #idsoftware #doom #wolfenstein #commanderkeen #anachronox #riseofthetriad

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25 May

I'm sitting here, reclining in my chair looking at my phone to focus on messages with friends, left monitor open to a minecraft video essay on youtube, right monitor opened to twitch watching a friend speedrun Super Mario World 2. A thought strikes me. Back To The Future: Part 2 called this.

I got cleared today by my psychiatric nurse to resume my normal schedule, including driving 😄

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#Gardevoir #Doom

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Waffle Iron Studios

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Project Absentia (as well as the OST and Saccharine) are all on Sale for 34% off on the Steam Autumn Sale!

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Hello! Bad news, recently I broke my tooth in such a way that I'm gonna need a crown. Worse news, I have no money at the moment for such a thing. If you have any money to spare, it would mean the world to me: ko-fi.com/velvetic

CMOS battery has been replaced, machine's still running at about 30C-45C depending on load. I think I can close this case. /bad joke

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Anyhow, now its functioning great - except I discovered the CMOS need replaced. Fortunately that's not too expensive, just a coin cell. This causes me to lose some settings like virtualization on each powerdown.

I had to replace the heat sink fan in my PC (only 20 bucks) because my CPU was hitting 65C while idling. Now it's down to 25C-30C idling and runs much quieter. Alas, one of my hard drives broke (it was failing anyway) while replacing the heat sink, so RIP to that.

The good news about the HDD failing is I could reinstall my internal BD-RW drive and use that to back up larger data that isn't "live". Plus booting is a lot faster without that failing drive. Next month I will start doing that.

maybe once this AI storage apocalypse stops (I pray to God everyday) I'll invest in more SATA SSDs and fresh NVMe SSDs... for now, this is what I have to do as I'm running low on space.

The throttling during usage was probably the CPU spiking to high temperatures. I hear AMD is good but you need a better cooler than stock. Wish I had listened to people sooner.

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19 Sept

Oh clearsky is down? Good. Maybe now my boundaries will be respected.

I don't like TL;DR stuff but I feel this needs some explaining. I've been afraid to say anything that's been eating me up. I hate drama-riddled "manifestos" but I need to explain this to move on. TL;DR: I'm being stalked + dealing with some major trauma that triggered catatonia.

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Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.

I also will be posting more art and stuff here. I am excited to show y'all what I'm cooking up both game and artwise. The one good thing is this has pushed me to create even more. If I can create art during a time like this, then AI chuds have no excuse to post slop.

Thank y'all for listening... also wanna thank @mbshepherd.bsky.social , @vexonia.bsky.social, @poppystar.bsky.social , @violetwaffleiron.bsky.social , @alperoo2.bsky.social and @kevansevans.bsky.social to name a few for helping me through these rough times.

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Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.

for the first time in a long time I'm feeling emotions and being okay with that. I'd rather feel emotions and be honest with myself...

What does this mean for my recovery from catatonia? I think I'm gonna be good to go back to driving, I wanna give it to the end of the month before I do. I'm gonna keep doing therapy for the long term, as I am still getting better from it.

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Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.

The other trauma I'm going through is much easier to sort out because it involves a few people who actually mean well and are actually talking to me about it like adults... and aren't accused of doing horrific shit. It's still trauma though.

I admit posting this was not easy for me. But it took me a few days of trauma processing and finally actually showing emotions other than rigid stubbornness. I fucking cried about a bunch of things. Including how much I didnt' wanna go home from Quakecon... alot of my friends were there ;_;

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Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.

This harassment, combined with country/world stage poltics, combined with other trauma processing... one day I snapped and I became catatonic. I haven't lost consciousness like that since 2014. Schizoaffective is one hell of a fucking thing people.

Even right now I'm fighting the urge to lock up and become unresponsive because I'm afraid she's gonna find even more ways to harass me and my friends... and monitor me like a hawk. I'm glad her vague harassment threats right before Quakecon never materialized, but the thought did upset me majorly.

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Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.

The screenshot was hosted on Discord so the link died, but I remember seeing her boyfriend threatening anyone who believed this with violence. I wish I had saved that.

I'm tired of being quiet and silenced into a corner. Mari the Deer/Marisa the Magician, you disgust me. You harass me, my friends, and I'm done with all of it. You're using being trans as a shield from your criticisms. Fuck off with that shit.

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Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.

... since then I've been threatened to "fix my heart or die" by one of her friends. I've had people DMing me on Discord fishing for information. I've even seen this person interacting with slanderous videos about me and my game and my publisher.

There's nothing I can do to stop _any_ of this except minimize my presence on BSky at a time I wanna show off my art more as a resistance against AI slop and fascism. I feel I'm being censored by someone who is claiming to be censored when she was removed from the community to protect people.

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Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.

The elephant in the room is this person in question is trans. She retracted her admission and is now using being LGBTQ+ as a shield from her actions. As a trans/enby person myself, I am appalled at this. This just makes us all look bad at a time where our civil rights are being mangled!

I'll say what needs to be said: No, trans people aren't groomers. Being trans has nothing to do with that. It's just we're a minority, so when someone does something immoral, it's easier to paint us all as such to fit fascistic agendas.

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Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.

Since then, me and at least one other friend of mine has been stalked for speaking out in the past/present. Every post of ours is scoured and twisted - even if it has nothing to do with her - despite blocking her and other people who have defender her.

To clarify as the editing box ate part of this: The person in question was accused of grooming and predatory behaviour. bsky.app/profile/sany...

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Back in 2023, a former friend of mine was accused to (and admitted, as I've seen the screenshots of her admission on her website/twitter when it was active). Before seeing the screenshots, I believed it to be a psyop, but I quickly retracted that once I saw the evidence.

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Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.

There were sexual harassment things she did to at least one other person (who I have on authority wants to remain on the down low because they do not want to be mobbed). Given what I've faced, I'm completely understanding of wanting to stay out of this person and her crew's line of sight.

17 Sept

Might have found the source of the catatonia. Still gonna take it easy a bit while I recover, but I think by October I'll be fine again to drive.

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16 Sept

Currently unable to drive + medical expenses left little wiggle room for food due to a seizure/catatonia episode last monday. ko-fi.com/sanyawaffles...

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16 Sept

Currently unable to drive + medical expenses left little wiggle room for food due to a seizure/catatonia episode last monday. ko-fi.com/sanyawaffles...

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16 Sept

thanks to all that donated or have spread the word so far. Means the world to me! Some of it went to Stripe, so I gotta wait a little. But thanks still :3 Being stuck at home sucks, but at least I got a project to keep busy on when I'm lucid.

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9 Sept

No DLSS 5. Just good art direction. #gamedev #indiedev #indiegame #chiptune #pixelart

30 Aug

Unrelated, lately I've been contemplating my pronouns due to me being plural. Finally have decided on he being okay again, especially when Sasha is fronting. That said I still strongly identify with my feminine side :3