Sae

Sae

@saebye.bsky.social

She/Her Former Level Designer for Open Fortress, currently in a weird limbo state regarding that. I make stuff sometimes. It's not the best, but hey, it's something. Profile picture is made by Howdot.

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hello all, my art commissions are officially OPEN !!! please check out my comm sheet and message me here or on discord at qorbee if interested !!! (PS my friend sae's gofundme is still active, please check that out too. i will leave a link in the replies to this post). #commissions #furryart

Heya, just jotting this down as a personal entry in case anyone still is wondering how I'm doing after the gofundme and whatnot, mainly to assure people that I did not just take the money and run. I'll try to keep it brief, but expect a few posts in this thread if you do end up reading. (01/07)

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forth from where I had previously just given up. Part of me just wishes I got that after they found out about me being trans in the last few months before they left, but it is what it is. I'll take whatever relationship with people I can get at this point lol. (06/07)

Long story short: Shit looks grim, trying not to be too doom-pilled about it all but it's still looking pretty bad. Left out a lot, but that's the jist. Will keep trying to find my footing one way or another, will keep you posted. Stay safe out there, and thank you for reading this far. -Sae.

Heya, just jotting this down as a personal entry in case anyone still is wondering how I'm doing after the gofundme and whatnot, mainly to assure people that I did not just take the money and run. I'll try to keep it brief, but expect a few posts in this thread if you do end up reading. (01/07)

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This culminated with the main place just telling me to 'check in a month' because they were having issues processing it. There technically is an option for me to move to another state, but that is an option I've barely touched on and I'm worried about leaving what people I do know (cont.) (04/07)

here behind for a completely new place and very little safety net (aka, what was initially presented to me last year by my parents.) For what it's worth, my mom is trying to repair our relationship from where they're at, which is very nice to see well intentioned effort being put (cont.) (05/07)

Heya, just jotting this down as a personal entry in case anyone still is wondering how I'm doing after the gofundme and whatnot, mainly to assure people that I did not just take the money and run. I'll try to keep it brief, but expect a few posts in this thread if you do end up reading. (01/07)

Still searching for a job, have had a few interviews that ultimately led to nothing. Definitely very stressed because in order for me to have a place to live, I need a job. The deadline of my landlord moving is still unknown, and I need a place sooner rather than later. (02/07)

Fighting with that on top of mental illness has been challenging, leading me to just not apply to new places multiple days in a row, which is not very good. Doesn't help that with me being on Medicaid now, trying to actually find a place near here that accepts it has been hard. (cont.) (03/07)

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The first SIGNAL LOST Development Update in 2 years is now live on ModDB, featuring a 16 minute long devlog, an absolute load of new Episode 1 & Episode 2 media, and several weapon model showcases. Hopefully it'll of stacked the weight! Link to the video, article, and more below!🧵

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#samandmax20th Sam & Max Season One never would have happened if not for Sam & Max: Freelance Police, a LucasArts game that was cancelled on March 3, 2004 — just a few months before its expected release. (Psst, share this thread for a chance to win a game key!)

Alright, so this is admittedly going to be a long series of posts that not many will see, but I still feel as if it's worth putting out there. Shit is bad. Like: Unbelievably bad. Despite spending my money solely on food, gas, and rent, I'm almost out again. I'm going to have to pull money- (1/09)

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lot to put out online, but I really don't have another outlet for this. Some family in my life know bits and pieces, but never the whole story because they wouldn't believe it. The ones that do know (my sisters) are far too busy to be able to sit down and help me with this. I don't know.- (8/09)

Massive shot in a dark, but if anyone has any ideas on what could be done: Let me know. I'm admittedly desperate, but obviously don't want to force anyone else to read this, y'know? Take care for now, and stay safe. <3 -Sae (9/09)

Alright, so this is admittedly going to be a long series of posts that not many will see, but I still feel as if it's worth putting out there. Shit is bad. Like: Unbelievably bad. Despite spending my money solely on food, gas, and rent, I'm almost out again. I'm going to have to pull money- (1/09)

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out. Knowing that my parents were right in thinking that I wasn't able to be on my own, all the while the only other option was to leave everything behind and go to a country that was completely foreign and not nearly as accepting on a national level. It's scary, and I'm (metaphorically)- (6/09)

hitting myself for not figuring out what to do sooner. I just want this to be over, to live a normal life for once, instead of constantly living in fear over if today is going to be the last day I have a roof over my head. Apologies for the rambliness of this all. I'm aware that this is a- (7/09)

Alright, so this is admittedly going to be a long series of posts that not many will see, but I still feel as if it's worth putting out there. Shit is bad. Like: Unbelievably bad. Despite spending my money solely on food, gas, and rent, I'm almost out again. I'm going to have to pull money- (1/09)

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submitting all of the required info. Because of this, getting a new therapist and medication is currently in limbo until I can. I had to say goodbye to a therapist of over 5 years due to this. On top of that, actually having a place to move with that irl friend has been slow.- (4/09)

Love her to death, but there's been no progress in a month and it's really starting to stress me out. I know I should be doing more and I know that I could've been out of this by now, but I haven't. That's on me, and honestly: I've been on and off crying for the past few days figuring it- (5/09)

Alright, so this is admittedly going to be a long series of posts that not many will see, but I still feel as if it's worth putting out there. Shit is bad. Like: Unbelievably bad. Despite spending my money solely on food, gas, and rent, I'm almost out again. I'm going to have to pull money- (1/09)

out of an investment account set up to me when I was really young. Only issue is that I have to go through my parents to get anything out of it, since it's still in their name for insurance reasons. I've been looking for jobs for the past few days now, although I know I should've been- (2/09)

looking for them far earlier. That's my fault, I was trying to get out of the 'living day to day' headspace and foolishly thought I could before job searching. My parent's insurance fully ran out and while I've applied for the Medicaid in my state, they have yet to get back to me after- (3/09)

Hey so update, I gotta find a new place to live again. Just found out today that they're selling the house as is, when previously someone else was gonna buy it and let the people who are renting out rooms stay. I swear to god, I can't catch a break.

Thankfully, I was already in conversation with one of my irls to move in with them. We'll see if we'll actually figure something out in time. It's just tiring because I'm still trying to get my shit together and here we are lmao. I'll keep you all posted as promise, stay safe y'all.

Finally got around to withdrawing the money from the gofundme. Been dragging my feet because of mental illness cropping back up again, been making everything an absolute slog. This is alongside even more shit happening, but for the sake of brevity I won't elaborate here. 1/2

I just want to thank everyone for donating and spreading the word once again. It really does mean a lot and I feel honored to be given a second chance like this. I'll try my best to keep you all posted. 2/2

(TW for ED mention.) MFW (my face when) I know that the first year of my transition has been knee capped from being blue-balled with food from when I lived with my parents, alongside recovering from what's most certainly some kind of eating disorder (I don't have a reaction image for this):

Not like the situation is better now, as I still have to have days where I don't eat at all in order to not spend too much on it. In the months before my parents left, I legit lost 20 pounds from just not having the means to get or prepare food. I'm clawing my way back up now, but damn.

Funny I mentioned BPD lmao, my online support system (my only current one) just collapsed in under 24 hours lmao. Living the dream lol.

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BPD is a fucking nightmare to do any research for (actual research, not just TikTok bullshit or whatever), because every time I want to further ways I can properly cope with it: I get bombarded with statements from others saying that anyone who has this are awful people to be around lol. (1/2)

BPD is a fucking nightmare to do any research for (actual research, not just TikTok bullshit or whatever), because every time I want to further ways I can properly cope with it: I get bombarded with statements from others saying that anyone who has this are awful people to be around lol. (1/2)

Yes, I know that they're talking about those who actively don't get help but damn. Saying that people with BPD are 'unlovable and they need to be ran away from' hurt. I'm aware therapists/therapy exists (I'm in it), I just want to try and look outside of the hour sessions I have every week. (2/2)

Love that my graphics card decided to shit the bed right when I moved in. Been having issues with it ever since, and it's been making using my computer for any longer than 5 minutes nigh impossible.

Quadruple late update (as I'm still trying to recover from this emotionally lmao), I finally have a place to stay since my parents forced me to rent out a room from a friend. Not complaining about the room itself as it's fine, but I'm still coming to terms with being sidelined by family lol. (1/3)

I also haven't had the chance to withdraw the money from gofundme, so I paid for it out of my own pocket lol, there's $900 down the drain. As for now, we'll see. As mentioned above, I'm still trying to recover from it all as there was a period where I was crying on and off for 24 hours lol. (2/3)

Who knows lol? I just tend to keep going despite it all, so I'll make it on the other side regardless lol. Keeping you all updated but for now, take care. (3/3)

TRIPLE UPDATE (I'm gonna curl up into a ball and cry lol), my parents are kicking me out again, as I've not fulfilled their standards of applying to jobs and rooms for rent in the past few days. This is after I almost got sent to the hospital by my counselor today due to mental health issues. (1/2)

If you want to donate or share again, you know the drill. I don't know how much I got left in me though, so we'll see how it goes. I haven't withdrawn the money so far, so if anything happens to me you'll all get your money back in September. Wish you all the best, and take care. <3 (2/2)

DOUBLE UPDATE (My life is a rollercoaster and I'm gonna hurl), I'm back at my parent's house. I was able to talk with them in order to get an extension while I search for a proper place to live. I'm on a day-by-day system so it's still a bit unstable, but we'll take those. (1/2)

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UPDATE to this as promised (apologies if it seems like I'm milking this, that's not my intention). My parents are insistent on kicking me out tonight, so I will finish packing my essentials before leaving to crash somewhere for the night. (1/2)

As usual, all of the money will be spent for rent of the new place and I'll keep you all posted on how that's getting spent for full transparency. For now though, I'll keep chugging away. (2/2)

UPDATE to this as promised (apologies if it seems like I'm milking this, that's not my intention). My parents are insistent on kicking me out tonight, so I will finish packing my essentials before leaving to crash somewhere for the night. (1/2)

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Heya, I admittedly don't use Bluesky a whole lot, but I just wanted to say that I'm getting kicked out of my home in a few days with no current place to live. I have a fundraiser link attached to this. Even if you cannot donate, sharing it would be much appreciated. www.gofundme.com/f/trans-girl...

All of the money will be going towards me finding a room tomorrow, as I just need to rest for tonight. I'm tired, I'm beat, and I feel awful. I'll continue to keep you all posted as much as I can. (2/2)

An update on this, first on what's going on and then a thank you. The date got moved to Monday, when I previously thought I would be kicked out today. My parents told me that I need to have everything packed by then in order to be out of the house. They also mentioned about snagging (1/4)

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Heya, I admittedly don't use Bluesky a whole lot, but I just wanted to say that I'm getting kicked out of my home in a few days with no current place to live. I have a fundraiser link attached to this. Even if you cannot donate, sharing it would be much appreciated. www.gofundme.com/f/trans-girl...

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Second, I'd like to thank everyone immensely for supporting and sharing the Gofundme. I did not expect for so many people to take notice of it in the first place, nonetheless donate to it. It's meant a lot and it's made the past few days a lot more positive and worth trying. (3/4)

I'll keep you all posted, whether it's good or bad. All money donated will go towards me getting back up on my feet, so do know that it will be going towards a good cause. Hope anyone who read this far the best, and many thanks once again. -Sae. (4/4)

An update on this, first on what's going on and then a thank you. The date got moved to Monday, when I previously thought I would be kicked out today. My parents told me that I need to have everything packed by then in order to be out of the house. They also mentioned about snagging (1/4)

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Heya, I admittedly don't use Bluesky a whole lot, but I just wanted to say that I'm getting kicked out of my home in a few days with no current place to live. I have a fundraiser link attached to this. Even if you cannot donate, sharing it would be much appreciated. www.gofundme.com/f/trans-girl...

a hotel room on Memorial Day, since they tend to be fairly expensive. It's still up in the air on where to go, as it's been fairly hard to get up every morning and keep looking. We'll see where I end up. If I have to live in my car for a few days, I will. (2/4)

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Heya, I admittedly don't use Bluesky a whole lot, but I just wanted to say that I'm getting kicked out of my home in a few days with no current place to live. I have a fundraiser link attached to this. Even if you cannot donate, sharing it would be much appreciated. www.gofundme.com/f/trans-girl...

gofundme.comDonate to Trans Girl in need of Financial Help, organized by Sae ZellerhoffHeya, my name is Sae and I'm a 19 year old trans woman in need of immediate help. … Sae Zellerhoff needs your support for Trans Girl in need of Financial Help

Just wanted to say here, thank you for everyone who has donated to and shared the gofundme link. I cannot express enough gratitude for the traction it's gotten so far, so just know that your actions have meant a lot so far. <3

Heya, I admittedly don't use Bluesky a whole lot, but I just wanted to say that I'm getting kicked out of my home in a few days with no current place to live. I have a fundraiser link attached to this. Even if you cannot donate, sharing it would be much appreciated. www.gofundme.com/f/trans-girl...

gofundme.comDonate to Trans Girl in need of Financial Help, organized by Sae ZellerhoffHeya, my name is Sae and I'm a 19 year old trans woman in need of immediate help. … Sae Zellerhoff needs your support for Trans Girl in need of Financial Help