mirror 👁️🪞 exhausted changeling

plagued by fae references and being excited only to realize it’s because of ac*tar and just being Irritated

good morning chat i’m laid on the couch working on comms and watching youtube on the big screen today

i have a grief-specific wishlist on throne and i want to take a moment to talk about what’s on there in the hopes that it will help someone else, too. 🧵👇

• fountain pen inks: colours that remind me of her, while also being practical. but also, if i’m being totally honest, i need small hits of dopamine right now and a hobby i love helps a lot with that. that’s also why my throne is full of other things that are less directly grief-related!!

i have a grief-specific wishlist on throne and i want to take a moment to talk about what’s on there in the hopes that it will help someone else, too. 🧵👇

• so many sudoku/crosswords/murdle/FRENCH WORKBOOKS??: my memory is really bad to begin with, and i know if i don’t stop myself i will just fall into doomscrolling. all of these have evidence-backed studies showing cognitive improvement/reduced deterioration. also i need to improve my french.

i have a grief-specific wishlist on throne and i want to take a moment to talk about what’s on there in the hopes that it will help someone else, too. 🧵👇

• my favourite notebook (MD A5 dot grid): probably self explanatory, but one of the healthiest things you can do is write about it. train of thought writing helps you both process and actually feel your emotions instead of rationalizing them, which is a bad habit of mine.

almost two weeks later and this is still true. we are still on the anticipatory stage, but it draws ever closer. it’s hard for me to stream or talk to anyone right now because i just cry and want to spend all my money. that’s all i am right now. it’s so… eugh. i wouldn’t wish this on anyone.

anyway if you want to for some reason get me smth i do have a throne, and it’s currently filled with a lot of things that remind me of cosette or stupid crafts i want to throw myself into to distract from the yawning void of grief. please do not feel obligated. throne.com/mirrorslament

i normally don’t like to talk about the current drama of the week, but i really do have a lot of complicated thoughts on the streamer awards right now re: vtubers, how people treat vtubers in general, and how certain crowds choose to present themselves online.

one of the (relatively) small things i would love for them to implement is actually something the federal duck stamp contest does! the winner cannot enter for three years after winning, giving chances for new talent to rise and be appreciated. there is so much to celebrate.

i normally don’t like to talk about the current drama of the week, but i really do have a lot of complicated thoughts on the streamer awards right now re: vtubers, how people treat vtubers in general, and how certain crowds choose to present themselves online.

IT'S TIME FOR ZOO BABY

who the fuck even is “””mirrorslament””” anyway

a little more griefposting but as stupid as it fucking sounds morning pages really do help a lot with processing shit. i have a specific notebook i pull out first thing in the morning, i sit down, i grab a specific pen filled with a specific ink, and i let loose my exact train of thought.