jun-system

what a stressful, whirlwind of a day

being villified for having care needs... ;_; & villified for for having boundaries... love it. didn't think our broken heart could shatter any more by these people.

🦊 oh yes. liking feet is totally on the same deplorable level as *checks notes* VIOLATING SOMEONE'S BOUNDARIES REPEATEDLY AFTER BEING TOLD NO totally. totally hypocritical of the fucking system with foot fetish artists to be repulsed by someone who did this, & didn't even deny it when confronted

🦊 if i have to be the irrational witch to free myself, then so be it

🌔 how do i have THIS MANY wip artworks?

turning into my favorite beasts, but tiny! by modifying my cassette player to play back tapes all sped-up and high-pitched >w< (a bit totally inspired by @straysatyrs.bsky.social 's posts!)

🌔 it's been me fronting for sleep, and i've been having odd dreams these past handful of days

and in another we just let loose and confronted a particular person. told them off in a way we're too timid to do in real life. that morning was deja vu when they woke me up and i realized the previous interaction was a dream.

🌔 it's been me fronting for sleep, and i've been having odd dreams these past handful of days

🌔 i might have my own identity? separate from being Rei2 (ok so internally my name is/has been just "Rei", same name as Rei1, but, yeah) but i dont feel like artist bunny Rei is a fake identity either? which is why we wonder if im a subsystem now

the one many of you, our system's friends, have come to know! being Rei (er, Rei2/Rei-Rei) is a fun time. but, i guess as Sara, it's, what's underneath, the art mode? idk. it feels like that's what the other alters are supposed to be, but systems weird. brains weird.

🌔 i might have my own identity? separate from being Rei2 (ok so internally my name is/has been just "Rei", same name as Rei1, but, yeah) but i dont feel like artist bunny Rei is a fake identity either? which is why we wonder if im a subsystem now

if i and the other version of myself that formed in the park in headspace are the same, it's so strange, it does feel almost like a "performer/superhero-esque" alter ego sort of thing

🌔 Carcar was there for me (Rei-Rei) last night when i was so sad and scared and in despair that, inside brainspace, i was alone in a park at night and crying and needed someone to hug me and tell me it'll be okay then, she woke up, and joined up with me

#sizesky scenario: upon the invention of size reduction treatments, folks choosing to be tiny pets, having never quite felt good as a full-size person, are entered into a program, the Minis Exchange, where members of the club can trial keeping the Minis as pets & companions.

Minis are low-cost to take care of, owing to how little food they eat, and belongings they need, given your big-to-them world already is so much! Plus, those who chose to be Mini in the first place wanna be pets and so tend to be very friendly, and just happy to be seen, held, & loved!

#sizesky scenario: upon the invention of size reduction treatments, folks choosing to be tiny pets, having never quite felt good as a full-size person, are entered into a program, the Minis Exchange, where members of the club can trial keeping the Minis as pets & companions.

Oftentimes, friends of the Minis-to-be enter the sign-up queue to join the Exchange Club, and can get priority for their teeny little friends! Club members are encouraged to, and often do, arrange playdates for their Minis to meet and socialize. (Esp. important for Minis who were friends when big.)

while we wanted our birthday gift to ourself to be "having a place lined up". it's probably not happening as soon as this next week but as much as we were losing hope yesterday, we just gotta. keep up our hope, keep up asking our friends (within reason), don't stay given up for long