Footsteps of the Furies

Small pleasures Small pleasures, all those pleasures that can be bought and sold or distributed by those hoarding them or having a monopoly on them, are a fundamental part of our lives. And they are fundamentally wrong... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/small-pleasu...

Lack of high standards I don't accept a lack of high standards in others. I slowly learned to tolerate it and deal with it, but it still bothers me a lot. Of course — I hold myself to very high standards in all I do... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/lack-of-high...

Overextension I feel tired. Tiredness came suddenly and hit me like a ton of bricks. Winter wasn’t so bad until last week — then the severity of the season came to a full and heavy blow. Dangerously low temperatures... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/overextensio...

Artificial lies A curious thing happened to me yesterday. I was looking for books about the history of Central Asia, more specifically connected to the time of the Silk Road and even more specifically to the cities of Samarkand... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/artificial-l...

Fresh footprints Look closely. Do you see it? They are barely visible but definitely there — my footprints in the fresh snow. It was snowing again overnight and it will keep on snowing forever. I am sure of that... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/fresh-footpr...

Sharpness in January It has been about thirty-five years since I started wearing glasses and I cannot imagine life now without my glasses. And I like the fact that every couple of years after getting my eyes checked and getting... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/sharpness-in...

Commonality in slight craziness In winter, when driving conditions become treacherous because of the snow or ice or sleet or deep freeze or all those elements at once, I leave my car at home and take a bus to get to work... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/commonality-...

A serious kind of detachment Detachment from anger and its causes, that is what I mean. Getting detached from smaller and interpersonal issues might be difficult and uncomfortable, but there is not much in comparison... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/a-serious-ki...

A small kind of detachment I don't know if that can be done, but I hope so. I need to learn (or develop) a way where I can detach myself from the problems of others. It is still too easy for me to get involved with situations... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/a-small-kind...

Mind deception I should probably have gotten used to it already because it happened again like clockwork, and again it happened very routinely. The pattern is the same — whenever I feel well and good and content and almost on the verge... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/mind-decepti...

The idea of god and god-wrath There are two different ways of looking at the idea of god. One is based on the initial thought process of ancient Greek philosophers and then refined over the ages... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/the-idea-of-...

Masks I have worn various masks for more than thirty years of my life. I stopped wearing most of them as my default face a little over three years ago. Some of them I still keep on hand so I can slip them over my real face... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/masks-b67da3...

Two Sundays I slept well and woke up late today. I got up at an ungodly late (for me) hour of 8 am and spent some time making a special and elaborate breakfast. Then I aimlessly moped around the house for a while... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/two-sundays-...

Deep freeze The dog was surprised by each step on the snow as we walked in the garden tonight while awaiting the deep freeze coming in the next days. Snow crackled and snapped and crunched and squeaked with the unfamiliar sound... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/deep-freeze-...

Fitting in If that is conformism, then I am a conformist extraordinaire. Going by my life experiences, I always fitted well within any group of people I encountered — either personally or professionally... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/fitting-in-6...

Tell me... Tell me I am a good boy. I am so hungry for compliments. I so much crave good words about myself — and those words don’t have to be true or even believable. Tell me I am a good boy and I am all yours... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/tell-me-d62b...

Being jealous I am jealous of many things and of many people. I can live with most of my pangs of jealousy since I am sure other people could be jealous of me and the way I am and the way my life goes on... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/being-jealou...

More fun I’ve done a lot of things in the last year — I walked a little over 4.000.000 steps (which is about 2900 kilometers), and I rode my bicycle for 1700 kilometers more. I started lifting weights for the first time in decades. I read 116 books... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/more-fun-8e5...

Unforeseen consequences of happiness I learned a lot this year. I read a lot of books, I digested a lot of ideas and had time to think and analyze and create (more or less) coherent train of thought. It might be fitting that on the last day of the... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/unforeseen-c...

A late December I checked and rechecked and something wasn't right. At all. I had to go to the most reliable source of historical information — bank statements. Banks don't miss anything, there is a record of all your actions... footstepsofthefuries.medium.com/a-long-decem...