HighImMiserable

I get better everyday and honestly, that should be good enough...

I have to not care, for my own mental health. And because I need the outside validation to solidify this. Mackenzie and my therapist said I don't have to care. So take it up with them.

My favorite thing I did as a baby stoner was at a big sesh and people would hit the bong and then say "I think it's ashed" and no one else would want to hit an ashed bowl. So I'd grab it and about 70% of the time I got another hit because there was still green under the ash. Then they'd be mad. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I literally cry when I accidentally kill a bug, and you think I can purposely manipulate someone for my own gain? You just don't know me anymore. 🤷🏻‍♀️ If I go into detail with you about that, you're going to take it as a personal attack. And I don't have to care about that anymore. Drs order.

Took my nephew to a sit down restaurant. iPad stayed in the car. Crazy that he is behaving and finding small things to do to keep himself busy. Almost like his parents parent him or something. Oh wait they do and more parents need to do that. Parent your children, people.

Real close to telling both of you to not talk to me until the bullshit between you two gets figured out. Like fuck I love both of you, but stop fighting for first place or you'll both lose and win nothing. And that's the problem, it's a competition.

REALITY PRINCIPAL. Boo ya, I remembered. 💅🏻

Goddammit I forgot what MORP means, and no one can help me except my therapist because only WE know what it means cause it's made up. All I can remember is mom-friend override. I can't remember what r and p stands for....

Omg school made me hate reading and now my ADHD has fried my brain and AUGH I just wanna read like I did before they put me in accelerated reading. Literally anything that brought me joy people exploited it in some way and now EVERYTHING SUCKS. FUCK.

How do I say "I genuinely just don't care that much", without sounding like a bitch?

Constantly in a state of 'My Future' by Billie Eilish. 🪾🌳

I haven't seen her in a few days and that scares me, but it's also fall, so she may be sleeping already. But I miss her

Sometimes you just need to put the "XD Rawr" playlist on and vibe.

Yo, that is not my baggage to carry. I don't know you like that, more importantly, you don't know me like that. ✌🏻

I just have to remember how bad this would've been a few years ago, even a year ago. Absolute meltdown material. But only a slight panic attack. 🤌🏻 Fucking progress.

If Saturn and Venus could CHILL THE FUCK OUT that'd be great, thanks. 😍

I just have to continue to remind myself, not here, not today. If anything comes up, it's not here and not today.

Watching bodycam video makes me realize the sense of justice I have is insane. Citizen stupid? JAIL. Police stupid? JAIL. ANYONE STUPID. JAIL.

You made choices I didn't like, my reaction to that is to distance myself. If your reaction to distance is more angry and bs, I really am okay with not having you in my life. My peace is above everything and if you think you come before my peace, you do not know me at all.

People think I WANT to have the support needs I need. I do not, they are support NEEDS. Not support wants. If you look at me and go "man I wish I had things as easy as she does.", you're asking to be disabled and fight your own brain and body every single day. I'm just a master of masking.

If she is unconscious and/or drunk, she can't give enthusiastic consent, which means it was rape. Go choke on a grape.

Oh no an autistic person showing autistic symptoms. 🫩 Being diagnosed late is crazy. When I wasn't diagnosed I was suicidal because I struggled and didn't know why. Now that I know, and I'm taking care of myself those symptoms are still invalid apparently, because now I KNOW. I'm 5yo autistic adult.

How do people who don't spend any time around me or my parents know how my parents treat me? Oh wait you tell them how you feel as if it's fact. Even tho you're disrespecting my boundaries over and over. At some point you have to take responsibility for your life dude.

Somebody paid for my Arby's in the drive thru. Thank you kind stranger❤️

Because of STUPID FUCKING BOYS now I know her name(possibly) and I feel sick to my stomach. She doesn't want this. I don't want this. #wearejanedoe

Y'all she ASKED to be a Jane Doe. What makes you think taking attention AWAY from finding her real name, a bad thing?

I get happy when I poop cause for so many years it was a gamble whether I'd poop and be in pain for the next hour. And now I can just like poop and not be in pain. And that's really fucking cool.

I went full fucking circle. 🫩

All because I "didn't say no". But did I ever say yes?

My body really can't tell the difference between being in imminent danger and my tummy telling me I have to poop.

Why did I question calling that out? Bitch wtf.

Pisses me off when my disability disables me. Like fuck you, quit that shit. I'm working on it...

Small spider is a male, big one is a female. After this photo he used his lil penis feet to boop her lil hole and then she promptly ate him. #girldinner

2 weeks of no therapy and I feel like I have lost progress, not because of no therapy, but because of what happened in those two weeks. Time feels off. My brain is tired.

Do I support ICE agents? Hell no. Do I think it's funny they were tricked into doing what they're doing? NO. People are desperate in this country, they will do anything they can to support their families. It's what the US does, it's how it's run. BE MAD ABOUT THAT.

My graditoad is on its last leg and I'm really trying to be grateful but the constant drama is making it impossible.

Next time it happens I'm walking away and we can go to therapy. I can't keep doing that.

Metaphorically, I can tread water all day, no problem. I don't know which way the land is and that's where I need help. I know how to swim, I just need to know the direction. OR I'm surviving, lost in the woods, no issues, but now I'm just going insane in the woods.

I finally broke and am paying for YouTube premium and omg not having the political ads every five minutes is so fucking nice. Genuinely messing with my mood. I hate that.

I want half my tits and uterus to disappear.

Nothing like a good panic attack to ruin a trip... Thankfully the hotel peeps understood and refunded us the second night we had booked. And I did get to use the pool.

I don't even do anything illegal and being in an area with flock cameras is anxiety inducing.