graphi 💐

very annoying that my Self evolved to crave connection affection and closeness but also to take every measure to sabotage and dissuade that from happening and instead live in a internal world that can't be communicated

it is always comforting to find i now don't like something i used to like. i listened to the Melvins the other day and did not dislike it but also did not really feel anything but "that part of my life is over"

baseball legend

sometimes i feel perhaps i should have separate personal account but the reality of no locked accounts makes that too frightful so maybe what i am looking for is "thinking" or "writing in a journal"

it is funny that biologically many reflexes (vomiting, orgasm, etc) operate like a dark souls status meter in that you have additive stimulation over time that degrades when the stimulus is removed and the reflex only happens at a specific threshold

going to become inconveniently tall 9 feet tall and have to crawl around the house on my hands and knees knocking stuff over

You will not climb?

sadly it is so over. i made it again and ate it but my baseline disgust with eating flesh was so strong that i bequeathed the remaining fish cartridges to my roommate

"hide post for me" is one of the most powerful incantations this site offers

need a little button i can hit to play this sound whenever i say something cryptic (>30x daily) youtu.be/hq4QJPlRE8w

what is the % chance analysis that i would enjoy dudlock

back off, bub.. i'm playing with toys beyond your comprehension here..

when the collard is big enough to be used as a placemat >>>>>

heard on kexp.. youtube.com/watch?v=kRnO...

adatara twins

handling a frozen fish fillet was so crazy it was completely flat on one side and felt like holding a cold plastic facsimile of a unit of fish

first time cooked frozen tilapia fillet in the oven all by myself. 12 minutes and it was yummy and didn't even sicken me. this is huge for me because i usually refuse to cook flesh at home and abhor most flesh anyway. and i often worry about my protein and b12. but now we are the champions

休みの日の夕方

shy dragon

prostate disorders..? heh.. as far as i'm concerned.. all instances of being pro-state are disordered.... 🐈‍⬛🏴

gamez 4 girlz 4 never: plushy skunky

youtu.be/el2THDai94k

got 5 hours sleep in 2 days and then drew this with trackpad

the events of the past few years especially the grief have done NES rom corruption on my psyche and self in a way that is pretty much impossible to communicate and it seems like that is just me now and i have to live with that forever

Hehehe. The darkness awaits you. Come back anytime.

LovelyBoy

guy who is normal #SquishHugArt

*traps you forever in a Sandy Petersen's Quake level with only 15% health and almost no ammo*

ずっとおやすみ

me if i was a dragon and i was fat and ate apples all day

1/3

we're going to do laproscopic surgery to remove that which makes you human. it's an outpatient procedure. yes, and then you will be a beast

(unfrozen from when i was frozen in 2020) i love Sufjan but the ascension is really like a half-inflated age of adz

sure i still want it

had this idea at work and awkwardly hiding it under my arm or clipboard when someone approaches me giant anime sweat drop on my head giggles

leaf-equipped #skweekoftheday

when im not playing pronoun palace i am still spelling words in the little grid in my mind all day and thinking about the sprites. infested status

my new "thing" is research and development on making "hummus toast" a workable concept. the current iteration is like two hummus giga croutons with greek salad on top that i carve into a mess with knife and fork in my dog dish