Rine Yan

Anytime I map out what caused me to deceive or harm people it is enlightening but ultimately after all the reflection and hurt from owning the truth of the whole matter I come back to this image

Government malfoid dog whistling is insane work

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Dahtin - Gecko VTuber

@dahtin.gecko.monster

i knew i related with this character

I’ve made and loss better friends

I am no longer considering (god willing)

When I engage in the optics of something it has been poisoned by “how will I look”, “how should I look, “what don’t want to look like” rather than simply “do I like it” do I like anything actually or am I just appreciating it.

You’re doing this all out of habit cause it’s safe, you need to find visceral joy not placation

It’s weird it’s like I’m playing games for what I want to see in them rather than experimenting with them as systems. Maybe I need a break from video games to see what exactly I want to *play* It’s crazy how JG being outted as a rapist shifted my own view in respects to how I engage with video games

It’s so habitual even with the little I play them. I always think this is gonna be the game where I really dive into the systems but that part of my brain is just not trained properly, I’m still in my survival mode where intimately dashing lights is what keeps me going. I must be so overstimulated

I fucking loved metal slug as a kid, with infinite tokens that game is just brain stim. It’s like it was so hard because it had all those animations like you were suppose to have breaks and the decision to continue spending money on this cabinet instead of blasting through it with nigh invinciblilit

Not for nothing it used to be a bug social thing for me and me playing video games now is always a sort of desperate plea that I will have people to talk about these things and it’s like. No, you will probably never in your life find friends like those, but also I’m hopeful, so I can’t fully let the

Weight of loss takeover, but maybe I’ll let it, as a treat.

Which is lmao but I don’t have to prove that I’ve had a lot of other feelings that are hard to process.

I thought I was seeing more stuff to gain appreciation for what I don’t understand, which is like useful in its own but right but now I’m pivoting to just “trying to find what I think looks cool”

I’ve had enough expiramentation give me the thing that makes my brain go 🫢🤔😁🥹😍😟😭🤯 no more intellectualizing, imma start fighting niggas

So far SMVT is ugly im not gonna lie

Thinking I should just finish xenoblade2 but I am just at a point where I cannot tolerate how it looks. I should just start playing ps1 games or something

Now I’m just looking down the list of games in my backlog and thinking of why I haven’t played them and I’m in just such a whiny mood lol. I don’t like Kiwami 2s UI. Cont? :P

So far SMVT is ugly im not gonna lie

*SMTV I’m just not the audience, like I’ve played P5 but I have never had any interest in smt as a series and I’m already not looking forward to seeing all the same demons again

Pink pantheress :)

Feral Fir time

Also fucking shot stop animated my ass, in *some* places I’m just at a loss *if* it was actually stop-animated like fuck me

Some of these djs got me thinking I could be a wedding dj relatively easy :smug: :clueless:

You may have my services but you must permit me to enchant your audience with two songs from my library

Im stuck on a loop because I physically can’t feel the emotions I would feel, I only know the mechanical processing action. The body cannot release the flood of requisite chemicals

Weed is good for me actually fuck my therapist and my psychiatrist

Feral Fir time

I told the manager 🫢🫢

Sza needs to reconsider being in the damn cocomelon movie

Feral Fir time

Michaelwave!!!! (COMMS OPEN)

I think the projector is out of focus 😶😶😶

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@michaelwave2005.bsky.social

Ruin

I called the company I worked for about a year ago and I never really apologized for my lack of responsibility, just that I was mentally unwell and doing weed. Maybe I would’ve said it if I was given more time but I just didn’t I failed and that’s it. Now I’m stuck in this limbo state cause I

Couldn’t get any of it right the first time. Pathetic

Fall is truly where it’s at

I did a job I disagreed with on a fundamental level and then am surprised when something goes horribly wrong

What a great read. Still don’t know what to make of mundum and if it should be avoided (atleast my own interpretation), but I do think it’s interesting how one character is so dedicated to this philosophy as a way of ignoring how his behavior broke the brain of another character. Very interesting

All around

I did a job I disagreed with on a fundamental level and then am surprised when something goes horribly wrong

Stick to your mundum

archiveofourown.org/works/365999...

archiveofourown.orgarchiveofourown.org

Just imagine a life where you didn’t want any one’s approval just made mistakes learned and stay true to what you think is right.

If you are gonna correct me at least be right

I, at 8 years old started having sexual encounters and I never got truly caught. I got caught once but it was relatively painless exchange and I kept doing it after the fact. I think not facing the consequences of these actions fucked me up and missed out on a lot things I needed to learn as a child

I had a wonderful dream that I can’t remember anything about- wait no I woke up early to do, something? My parents were both asleep they woke up at odd intervals, I don’t know maybe it’s not all that important to remember, but just to hold on to the feeling I have now of relative serenity.

Saya no Uta

shy's video folder@shyvideos.bsky.social