Fox of the Nine Tails

2025: the year of no, and I'm not sorry. I'm done. I'm done placating, I'm done sacrificing so someone feels better, I'm done denying myself for no reason. And for everyone who pushes back, says I'm being too self indulgent, thinks I should hold back? Fuck you. I've waited 36 years. No more.

My beloved Terra gets the full treatment. @sweetpotatodato.bsky.social you might like!

Reminder of a few things that are for YOUR comfort and no one else’s: - Your chosen name- it’s what you like to be called. - Your pronouns- similar as above - Your religion- not to be forced onto others who think different - Your clothes- it’s YOUR body, you’re the one living in it.

This was so much harder than I thought it would be. How do you pick 9 games that have shaped your life? Is that the criteria? Or are they 9 games that mean the most to you? Or 9 desert island games? I decided 9 games that shaped me. Each and every one has added an element to my life.

Checking out the whole album is worth your time. But...Tom Hardy recites the "winter of our discontent" monologue from Richard III in the Bane voice.

This is going to sound completely wild. I think swaddling myself in satin every night is helping me somehow. Satin comforter, satin blanket, satin pillow cover. It sets of some kind of tactile euphoria in my brain, and even when I can't sleep, just feeling it against my skin is everything.

Found some purple flowers and immediately knew @craniatology.bsky.social needed to see them.

So, I rarely ever post. I didnt think it would get here so quick! IM SO EXCITED Not pictured is the inside of the hoodie, which also has stars. I was hoping it would get here during this little cold spell, you know I'm going to wear it no matter how warm it is. @minodev.bsky.social Thank you!

I will always love and support you, no matter what. (Forgive me, my phone is so old I dont have a trans flag emoji.) #transdayofvisibility

Okay so I dont need a new desk mat. But I need THIS new desk mat.

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Something "new" and fun planned tonight, for my first stream of the New Year! Join us at 6:30 EST!

Had Kenna cut and dye my hair, and I inadvertently look like my XIV character. Not as handsome, of course, but like...its close.

The name "Popular Science" doesn't mean we shift our coverage depending on public opinion. It means we cover relevant subjects that are rigorously researched, reliable, and grounded in reality. And trans lives are grounded in reality. We see y'all. No matter what. www.popsci.com/science/tran...

I say this with zero irony: if you are even tangentially a part of a retro video game community, it is your civic duty to push back against this company and shun anyone who doesn't. This is fascism tapping gently at the door and as soon as you let it in, it's going to invite its friends.

I just...I need to know why Bluesky thinks I want to see core content on my timeline. Or inflation. Or diaper stuff. Not shaming anyone, but it is absolutely not for me and I don't want it. Evidently, muting the words isn't enough.

SKULL OF THOMAS AQUINAS: TAKE A LEFT NOW PRIEST: No, the GPS says we have to keep going— SKULL: I KNOW A SHORTCUT PRIEST: Do you remember the last ti— SKULL: FOR THOSE WITH FAITH, NO EVIDENCE IS NECESSARY; FOR THOSE WITHOUT IT, NO EVIDENCE WILL SUFFICE

Restarted my diet today. Got a ton of high fiber foods, reducing my carb ibtake (not eliminating it), going to try really hard to not drink my calories. Bam, woke up with a migraine that only let me work about 5 hours today. Dinner is now hash browns and chicken patties. :/

So it's crazy dry at my place already. And I want to add some greenery to my room. Any suggestions on plants that aren't crazy high maintenance, but might help add a little humidity to my room?

Can I ask a serious question? Don't come for me in the comments, I legitimately would appreciate an explanation. Let's say they release the Epstein Files. And Trump is all over them, as we well know. What will change? He's gotten away with 34 felony counts, we know he's a pedo. I don't understand.

Been fighting a cold for about a week, one of those annoying ones that doesnt ever really fully hit, just one symptom then the next. Was gifted a congested head two nights ago, and to retaliate I ate a lot of homemade buffalo sauce. Been up for an hour with heartburn like I haven't had in months.

And for my next trick! *sits very still with the lights off, nursing a migraine*

"Succession of Witches" from #FF8 🧙‍♀️🪄 Happy Halloween! #FinalFantasy #FFVIII

Some day, it won't work. Some day, I will reach for it, and it won't be there anymore. Very healthy to be thinking that right now...

Laying in bed, trying so carefully not to over think. But theres that layer just above your subconscious. You know it's there, and it does what it wants, thinks what it wants. Next thing you know, your heart is racing and you are scrambling for the only thing that calms your anxiety attacks.

“Just” friends, as if friendship could ever be just anything. As if it doesn’t run soul deep, carved into bone like initials on a tree. As if it doesn’t have the power to save you or bring you down to your knees.

Its now, in the early hours of the morning, when I am at my loneliest. Laying in bed for hours doesnt let me sleep. All the people I love are quiet. I have nothing but my own thoughts, and they are crueler to me than anyone has ever been.

I was planning on going for a hike in the woods. Its been cold, foggy, and rainy all week. Forecast was calling for the same today. Wake up this morning to sunshine, and a ton of work in my email. I just want to walk through the woods, touch the maples, sit with the ferns; all with a steady rain.

a little gray fox 🍁

Friday is so far away.

old terra art 🥹

(Yes, I know the previous post was fucking juvenile and stupid. 300 characters is not enough to explain things, and express how I feel about it. You get a frowny face, and you get a frowny face, and you get a grown face!)

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Trans girls love your own voice challenge. We all love the way you sound, we love your laugh.

New trailer for "All You Need Is Kill" animated feature by Kenichiro Akimoto & Studio 4°C. Coming in Japanese theaters on January 9, 2026. www.youtube.com/watch?v=IrHi...

Got a little time with people tonight. I think it helped. Not with the loneliness, but with being able to let them go.

When will I stop seeking someplace to vent? Every time I say anything out loud, I feel like I'm doing it for attention.

I push people away, and then when they stop coming back, I get hurt. I see it coming, fuck I warn them that I do it. I need to stop letting myself get close, everyone ends up hurt.

The following is REAL footage from Portland, 2025. Viewer discretion is advised.

I think I just want my friends to know that despite everything, despite all the crap I pull, that I really care about them and I love them. I'm okay with loving people from afar, I've been pushing people away my whole life. I'm just trying to be better.

I dunno. I finally told some people about what is going on with me, and I feel like its too little too late. Its really my own fault. I love them for who they are, and if not being present makes their life better, then I want them to protect that peace.

hold on just a second here

Saw a post yesterday in which someone was talking about "all the good games we've already gotten this year!" And my brain is like: I mean, it's only May, we have been pretty spoiled. It's fucking October.

I played "Character Creation" on the harp, to celebrate the upcoming Ivalice Chronicles! ❤️ #FinalFantasy #FinalFantasyTactics