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I'm normally way too masking with hypervigilance to really ever have "crashed" before but now it happens with some regularity. it's weird to just want to go to bed at 8 after a mildly stressful few days for me. normally I just mask though it and go to bed at a normal time. I guess this is "rest"

like I've gotten tired but only after it's made definitive physical somatic sense before or an acceptable amount of time had happened or I played video games until 2 am and fall over, like, I've been *tired* but it's different. more obvious.

I'm normally way too masking with hypervigilance to really ever have "crashed" before but now it happens with some regularity. it's weird to just want to go to bed at 8 after a mildly stressful few days for me. normally I just mask though it and go to bed at a normal time. I guess this is "rest"

it's weird to notice that I guess it's not inconceivable that this is the second ever time I have felt like I am about to "lie down and rest" but it might be I don't know how to explain how truthfully I mean that, y'know, with my emotions and stuff idk what you'd want to call me because of that?

I don't give a heck about baseball but I'm happy for 2/3 of @redlettermedia.com who might care a little, just as a thing to see at least.

hey you know what? fuck you i'm making my own doctor who and i know enough about doctor who to make it entirely legally distinct in every SINGLE way but never break any of YOUR rules either which means it is TECHNICALLY NOT IMPOSSIBLE FOR IT TO BE CANON but never say a goddamn thing about it

max rockatansky is the man with no name james bond of the australian post apocalypse. he's also basically just star lord odysseus on a fuckin dusty gap year on gasoline psychopath planet, whatever. i thought you people LIKED rick and morty this doesnt seem too hard to understand

hey you know what? fuck you i'm making my own doctor who and i know enough about doctor who to make it entirely legally distinct in every SINGLE way but never break any of YOUR rules either which means it is TECHNICALLY NOT IMPOSSIBLE FOR IT TO BE CANON but never say a goddamn thing about it

because don't get it twisted, i wrote the fuckin essay earlier about SACD and fanfiction and the english canon i have said my peace to swift and pope and pepys and byron and his entire tragic polycule, and dear sweet oscar, my weird birthmate, my time-misplaced charles xavier i live in his backyard

hey you know what? fuck you i'm making my own doctor who and i know enough about doctor who to make it entirely legally distinct in every SINGLE way but never break any of YOUR rules either which means it is TECHNICALLY NOT IMPOSSIBLE FOR IT TO BE CANON but never say a goddamn thing about it

two ways i have described, to myself, the nightmare cocktail i just made "bad water" "it tastes like a department store changeroom"

remember canada, just because it /says/ rich white cheddar on the box of kraft dinner doesn't mean you are don't let them trick you that easily

@ianboothby.bsky.social aww we love a wife guy hi ian i bet ive seen you around too a decade ago at some vancaf somewhere

@michaelburns.bsky.social hey michael, no fooling, i know i fuck around and ha-ha-its-a-joke-unless.... the concept of you coming here but look what i just learned about like if this isn't tailor-made for you to come do i don't fuckin know what is dawg sipsmarter.ca

i have NO idea what the calibre of past speakers has been or what is involved or anything, but "talking for 45 minutes on a stage in a pub or a brewery to a bunch of too-bougie-for-their-own-good millennials and associated weirdoes" is sorta your brand so it can't hurt. praxis is praxis. $ is $.

@michaelburns.bsky.social hey michael, no fooling, i know i fuck around and ha-ha-its-a-joke-unless.... the concept of you coming here but look what i just learned about like if this isn't tailor-made for you to come do i don't fuckin know what is dawg sipsmarter.ca

i have NO idea what the calibre of past speakers has been or what is involved or anything, but "talking for 45 minutes on a stage in a pub or a brewery to a bunch of too-bougie-for-their-own-good millennials and associated weirdoes" is sorta your brand so it can't hurt. praxis is praxis. $ is $.

now I gather this makes me weird I suspect but I don't think I watch/read/play speculative fiction like most people mainly I think people ascribe too much direct allegory to things taking place in demonstrably, characteristically in fact, not playing by the rules of the world you exist in, morally

...a lot easier to write as the moral and ultimately correct choice in a world of absolute systemic ruin that also happens to be inhabited by dragons and space-time altering entities so yeah fuck it babygirl let's invent motorcycles "war crimes? says who?"

now I gather this makes me weird I suspect but I don't think I watch/read/play speculative fiction like most people mainly I think people ascribe too much direct allegory to things taking place in demonstrably, characteristically in fact, not playing by the rules of the world you exist in, morally

batman in a world of magic and gods and afterlives is interesting precisely because he's so fucking precious about killing serial killers even though an infinite number of wizards and aliens and time travelers can undo anything any time they want

now I gather this makes me weird I suspect but I don't think I watch/read/play speculative fiction like most people mainly I think people ascribe too much direct allegory to things taking place in demonstrably, characteristically in fact, not playing by the rules of the world you exist in, morally