Guess I'll do an intro post with all these new Vtubers :3
I'm Dorrel Redmond a Femboy Neko English variety vtuber and MMDer with too many hobbies ๐น
I stream mostly sandbox and puzzle games, but am always up for new things
Here's some pics of me, one from Warudo the rest from MMD videos I made ^-^
It's been a bit since I did an update. I recently moved to my own apartment!! It's been really nice, but it takes getting used to. I'm working on getting into a routine, but hoping to stream more soon!
However, I do want to vent and be vulnerable for a moment in a way that I normally wouldn't...
I'm slowly accepting that I truly CAN be who I want to be. Despite only truly being here a couple weeks, I actually feel happy again. I have to be careful with my spending and can't really treat my friends to things like I would before, but I'll be a bit selfish for once and take that tradeoff.
It'll take a while to be where I want, but I'll take things one step at a time. For now, getting used to it all. Next creating a schedule and getting back to doing the things I love~
And if you read all of this, thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart for being here, despite everything ๐
It's been a bit since I did an update. I recently moved to my own apartment!! It's been really nice, but it takes getting used to. I'm working on getting into a routine, but hoping to stream more soon!
However, I do want to vent and be vulnerable for a moment in a way that I normally wouldn't...
Finally moving out and getting my own place has been the change I needed.
Now that I live alone, I'm not worried as much about what I'm wearing, how I'm acting, or anything like that. I'm cooking more regularly again (albeit really simple foods for now) instead of constantly eating out.
I don't feel like I have to be trapped in my room all day everyday. I've been utilizing the entire space that I have (it's a 2-bedroom apartment~) and have even spent a few days looking through Pinterest, Amazon, etc. for new decor and furniture. I'm slowly getting things I always wanted.
It's been a bit since I did an update. I recently moved to my own apartment!! It's been really nice, but it takes getting used to. I'm working on getting into a routine, but hoping to stream more soon!
However, I do want to vent and be vulnerable for a moment in a way that I normally wouldn't...
For the last few years, I had been living with my grandfather, but I couldn't do anything like I wanted while under that roof. I was stuck being his grandson... one of "the men" of the family... so many times I wanted to cry and thoughts of suicide crossed my mind more times than I can count.
I spent more time in private VC's trying to just distract myself. Oftentimes spacing out mid-conversation.
Crazy part is... I told literally NO ONE about any of this. As far as anyone was aware, I was just busy and tired for the past several months.
It's been a bit since I did an update. I recently moved to my own apartment!! It's been really nice, but it takes getting used to. I'm working on getting into a routine, but hoping to stream more soon!
However, I do want to vent and be vulnerable for a moment in a way that I normally wouldn't...
Combine that with knowing much of my family is highly religious... I felt trapped... Felt like I could never express myself... that I could never truly be the person I want to be... All these emotions... bottled up for months. I started eating even worse. I stopped taking care of myself.
I stopped regularly streaming because I didn't have the mental capacity to do it. Streaming was always supposed to be my escape, but my mental health was so horrid that I couldn't even utilize it. I searched for some way out. Trying to find a new escape. That's what led me to finally moving out.
It's been a bit since I did an update. I recently moved to my own apartment!! It's been really nice, but it takes getting used to. I'm working on getting into a routine, but hoping to stream more soon!
However, I do want to vent and be vulnerable for a moment in a way that I normally wouldn't...
I've noticed many people at work be openly transphobic. Constantly making fun of the few times we would have someone trans come in. I had even attempted to tell a coworker that I thought I could trust, since she was supportive and lgbt herself... I was proven wrong before I could even tell her.
Which yes, that means I did not tell her anything about me being trans. But seeing her reaction as I even discussed trans people in general, told me everything I needed to know... that I truly couldn't trust anyone there.
It's been a bit since I did an update. I recently moved to my own apartment!! It's been really nice, but it takes getting used to. I'm working on getting into a routine, but hoping to stream more soon!
However, I do want to vent and be vulnerable for a moment in a way that I normally wouldn't...
The more I started to accept myself, the more flaws I started to see... the more I realized how far I really am from being what I truly want to be. I continue to see so many issues with my own body, which only led me to feel worse about myself. I tried opening up more to people both online and IRL.
The people I opened up to online have all be so sweet and supportive. However, IRL is where things get so much more complicated.
It's no secret that I live in Texas, which is a very anti-lgbt state. I didn't realize just how bad it was though until I started looking more closely.
It's been a bit since I did an update. I recently moved to my own apartment!! It's been really nice, but it takes getting used to. I'm working on getting into a routine, but hoping to stream more soon!
However, I do want to vent and be vulnerable for a moment in a way that I normally wouldn't...
TW: mental health, body dysmorphia, transphobia, suicidal
Now that's out of the way, as I've slowly accepted myself as trans, I also noticed a rapid decline in my mental health, leading to a terrible mental state and making it harder and harder for me to keep streaming regularly.
Took me like two days but finally managed to switch back to EndeavourOS/Arch and get more or less exactly where I was with my PC. I liked NixOS on paper but in practice its approach just wasnโt for me. I do feel like I learned a lot over the past year using it though despite that!
#vtuber#linux
I decided to finally give My Hero Academia another chance... I had stopped after Season 2 way back when... decided to rewatch Season 2 the other day... I'm now halfway through Season 3... I now understand the hype again...
[COMMISSION]
#kofi Gardevoir Dress interpretation โจ๏ธ
commission for @dorrel.moe ๐
Thank you so much. I loved drawing these so much! ๐งก
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#kofi#artcomm#dorrelArt
โจMy first cover ever!โจ
I did my best and I learned a lot so it'd mean a lot if you'd take a look๐๐
๐ถใทใชใงใฏใฑใณใต Eye Examination
โค๏ธCredits!โค๏ธ
Vocal/Art/Video: _universecat
Mixing: @ryuzenmusic.bsky.social (Huge Thank You!!!)
Full Video: youtu.be/14kBb3un8TA
!!! LIVE NOW !!!
Return to our regularly scheduled programming with some Resident Evil 4 with my daughter/friend @yanithesoftie.bsky.social!
This time I won't be as washed up... maybe... either way come join us and find out!
www.twitch.tv/lord_derpachu
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Streamingใ #Minecraft ใ
Day 3 of that modded sky life with the lovely @cubisky.bsky.social & @lordderpachu.bsky.social as we work our way through FTB Skies 2
#VTuber#vtlive#femboy#linux#collaboration
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Streamingใ #Minecraft ใ
Day 2 of returning to the skies wif da @cubisky.bsky.social and wait is that a duck?? ( @lordderpachu.bsky.social )
We playing FTB Skies 2!!
#VTuber#vtlive#femboy#linux#collaboration
Its finally time!! My model thats been in the works for years is about ready to debut! ๐๐โ๏ธ
So...how about a little model reveal for some fun? ๐
Debut is planned to be on my birthday, February 14, because why not ๐
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Streamingใ #ClairObscur ใ
Day 3 of our blind playthrough~
The game has me in a chokehold! It's taken so much restraint to not play it in my off time ๐คฃ
๐จ by @joybilance.bsky.social#VTuber#vtlive#trans#linux
Come along with me, ๐
And the butterflies and beesใโช
Duet with @vellenjord.bsky.social! ๐งก๐
(we meant to release this on new year's, but had this sweet idea for cover art, which made it take a little longer... was it worth the wait?)
#adventuretime | #songcover
Hey Vtubers,
Reminder your steam saves all game logo's to your pc and they're transparent. Just search .png from that folder. I have it bookmarked to my start menu.
It seems to be organized with newest games (added to library) at the top.
C:\Program Files (x86)\Steam\appcache\librarycache
Posting a bit early, but here be the stream schedule for the coming week!
NGL I wasn't originally going to play Clair Obscur 2 days this week, but I'm too addicted and want to keep playing, so I decided to redo it a bit from my original plans so that I can get through more of it x3
#vtuber
For once I actually laid out some content creation goals for the year~
I'm hoping that having these will both keep me accountable, but also help me to continue moving forward as I feel like I've stagnated, doing the same thing, without improvement, unlike when I first started as a #vtuber
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Streamingใ #ClairObscur ใ
Back to our blind playthrough of this game~
I swear if this game makes me cry again though.... ๐ญ
#VTuber#vtlive#femboy#linux
UPDATE: I am feeling better now that meds and stuff have kicked in more, so Iโm gonna try to stream still like planned!
I just gotta make more tea at least before I set up lol ๐ต
ugh... so there's a chance I won't be able to stream after all tonight. I woke up feeling super crappy. I took some meds so I'm hoping that I'll be fine by then, but we will see... ๐ฟ
ugh... so there's a chance I won't be able to stream after all tonight. I woke up feeling super crappy. I took some meds so I'm hoping that I'll be fine by then, but we will see... ๐ฟ
Lookie lookie, I finally made a stream schedule again~
Not too much planned for this week, but it's something
Due to my work schedule, I'll be alternating between weeks like this one and next weeks streams. I may try to throw in a guerilla stream as well, but we'll see
#vtuber#trans#linux
Oha-nya! For anyone new, Yuuki is a timid kitty #VTuber that usually streams from her cardboard box Mon, Tues, Wed (or Thurs) & Saturday at 9PM ET/6PM PT! Please come & support Yuuki!
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#ENVTuber ๐ #ใใฏใใVTuber ๐ #ๆฐไบบVtuber ๐ #LGBTuber
Lookie lookie, I finally made a stream schedule again~
Not too much planned for this week, but it's something
Due to my work schedule, I'll be alternating between weeks like this one and next weeks streams. I may try to throw in a guerilla stream as well, but we'll see
#vtuber#trans#linux
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Streamingใ #VRising ใ
Returning to Vardoran as we continue to reclaim what once was ours ๐ง
At least... that's what I would say, but gathering materials is gonna be the death of me! ๐ญ
#VTuber#vtlive#femboy#linux
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Streamingใ #ClairObscur ใ
Kicking off the year with a new game~ ๐ฅณ
I'm going in pretty much blind so we'll see how this goes ๐จ
#VTuber#vtlive#femboy#linux
I am both ready and not ready to be back on graveyard shift for the next 3 months. On one hand, no admin to worry about and more freedom (also easier to stream tbh)โฆ on the other, sleeping through the day and missing literally basically every event and noisy family
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Streamingใ #VRising ใ
Finally able to stream again for a bit~
We're continuing my growing addiction of this game living out our lives as a vampire ๐ง
#VTuber#vtlive#femboy#linux
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It's the FINAL KEY GIVEAWAY!!! do-da-do-do!
With the payment processor mess & the suppression of speech in general I wanna get games to vtubers while they're still available.
Drawings start 9/22
Game List: docs.google.com/spreadsheets...
Rules/Info on Graphic๐ฝ
It's Transgender Awareness week, as we take time to remember those we lost, please check on you trans friends. It's really dark out here and it's getting harder each week.
Please help us where you can.
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Streamingใ #VRising ใ
Answering the call of the night ๐ฆ
Gaining power and terrorising villages, one evening at a time ๐
#VTuber#vtlive#femboy#linux