Bloopy!

12 June 2025

Captain of spent luck & sinking yourself; Shipwell

Man I really went on a tirade with my schizophrenic babble over the past few years without apology. I'm sorry I was loud then and quiet now with no in-between. Willing to detail my experience more I've yet ask my loved ones how I was acting then, scared of the results, if any are to be included.

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Treatment is not just fixing what is broken; it is nurturing what is best. I've learnt since then that reality can be just as empty or vast as one can see. these days I wait in patience, distancing, observing. Hoping I might not be what you expected anymore. I've both stayed the same and changed.

Emotionally I've not died yet. Mentally I'm humbled and withheld. Physically I might be near extinct. Spiritually I'm open to perspective. Good morning. Good night. Sweet dreams There might be more to say but until then I'm happy with how I've recovered so far. Medicated and all.

www.furaffinity.net/journal/1122... I wrote my life's story here for myself to keep myself stable and known, so I can be proud of living in my own skin, of having taken care of them the best I could. life satisfaction of people with schizophrenia is a complex configuration of strengths.

With my heightened emotions and abstracted theory of mind I let myself run away thinking I had no privacy left in the world My loved ones could only worry I could not self regulate my capacity for love in my delusional state of being, thinking my eyes held the world attaching meaning to everything

It was quite scary looking back I barely have the connections to meaningfully understand what all I was saying and doing then. Things happen in their own good time I'd like to think, same goes when reality becomes stranger than fiction. Everything meaningful to me suddenly shifted.

I have no guarantees this will go anywhere but it's a step forward into taking responsibility. This is my room where I stay most of my time inside of, looks quite lived in, right? My grandparents after their death was taken upon me to show them the world, I was haunted trying to let go of them.

Whats with jump rope lately

Theres fame within the name of fox, As the tame will be made small game, Further much to blame than there is to claim. Equipped with sword and shield with bombs and apparel, Fending for the lost for where you stood found.

a part time guide, horn the hounds to hide, as the tides wash ashore in stride. Coloured contrasts and abstract pixels, bend the eye with tangents and angles.