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chapter 1 of unmasking god begins w a memory of leaving the dubious safety of indoors for the glories of outside. #BookSky #AuthorSky #ReadingSky #Exvangelical #2Spirit

i am learning so much. like learning that i have intermittent speech. sometimes it's hard to talk. i use texting to help me. i support AAC, spelling, any manner of aac that helps someone talk! i am grateful for technology that allows us our voices.

see the dude who was proud to say he'd never done anything when all us femme coded people were talking abt #iamjanedoe - he cdn't understand why i told him to take several seats. he finally said he'd never speak up in support again bc his fragile fee fees were hurted he is not one of the good guys

this got me right in the reaganomics. it's all a scam.

while the moral panic over estrangement from grown adult children to abusive parents increases, i'm here to remind you: they fucked it up. it's not our job to fix it. it's theirs. #Exvangelical #religiousabuse #childhoodtrauma #traumasurvivor

after having my heritage denied from me, i just learned today that i am OTOMI. it's something i have longed to know for many many yrs. fuck the exmother for hiding my past. #childhoodtrauma #traumasurvivor

no shade to them, but the six grandfathers was more beautiful.

i think they loved the power over us. it wasn't just that they were scared into it. i know for the exparents it was surely that they loved it. #Exvangelical #religiousabuse #childhoodtrauma #traumasurvivor

kitty says her spot isn't sufficiently fluffed. #cats #gato #catsofbluesky

listening to turtle island music today. it reminds me i am sacred just as i am. #2spirit

You're not "stupid" for having struggled to be on your own side in the past-- you were conditioned to imitate your bullies & abusers. Not only that, you were programmed to believe maybe they'd like you if you were enough like them. You were skillfully conned. Not your fault.

my person got me a NEW (ok it's used) more powerful #macro lens! it goes on his medium format camera. i was le scared to try it, but then i was like you've gone thru hell. why not be brave? so i found this dandelion that was lonely & spoke to me. #Photography #Bloomscrolling #Flowers #Art #Nature

apparently some 200+yo cottonwoods were destroyed along the border for a wall. let's see. they are our RELATIVES, not just 'trees'. they are not an inconvenience, to be discarded bc they are in the way. relatives are not discarded on a whim. #2spirit

it's not the alcohol that makes men SA. it's the fact that they are assaulters. they MAKE the choice. i said what i said. #iamjanedoe

oooh i tend to think this a TON. i was brought up hearing this ALL the time as a means to shut down my pain. it's ok to say i'm in pain. it's ok to say it was bad. #religiousabuse #childhoodtrauma #traumasurvivor

holy shit. ai is never your friend. when will people learn?

#iamjanedoe

hair is long. haircut was to be tomorrow. it's been... delayed. i am triggered by HAIR & feeling femme. i feel ridiculous, but also it has to be ok? i will be ok, it's just a lot today. #2spirit

ask me how i know. #Exvangelical #religiousabuse #childhoodtrauma #traumasurvivor

growing up i was mocked for loving trees & nature. 'tree lover' i was called. well i love them. it's worth it.

#redwed - maple leaves on the trail, beguiling in their bright defiance of coming winter. #ColorADay #Photography #ECK #Art #Nature #NaturePhotography #PhotographersOfBluesky #Macro

i am prepared.

What consistently happens in the middle of the night is more important to most survivors' trauma recovery than what happens 55 minutes a week in a therapy office. A good therapist can be amazing. But recovery is about us being there for ourselves when no therapist is available.

Self talk is an especially important tool when we're hit w/ flashbacks. The middle & right hemisphere of our brain are melting down, & we need to activate that front & left hemisphere w/language to get neural "coolant" flowing. Don't panic. Start talking yourself through.

how old do you have to have been to be jane doe? asking for a friend. it's me. i'm the friend. #iamjanedoe

if you lay hands on me, it's on you. it's not my fault. it's yours. #iamjanedoe

what i love abt these comics is their gentleness <3 <3

when i worked in defense contracting, i lost out on numerous opportunities bc i didn't feel safe going out w 'the boys'. it's a known thing.

another reason i fell out w god & trust science instead now. #exvangelical

dude says he's tired of being told he's the problem. he won't support anymore. he's part of the problem. good guys will force their kindness on femme people, expecting those of us non men to accept it - it's dubious at best. do better! #cornell7 #traumasurvivor

oh so you're a man who never SA'd someone? want a cookie? i'm not here for it. try being the wet blanket who doesn't tolerate jokes or your friends making non men uncomfortable. it's a low fucking bar to not SA & now is not the time to be bragging am i hostile? bet your fucking ass i am #cornell7

don't do it

ahah moments regarding deconstruction. i don't believe in either, but this helps me remember that hell isn't real or worth fearing. #Exvangelical #religiousabuse #childhoodtrauma #traumasurvivor

protecting the land is a sacred duty.

New bro code: "Protect women. Respect women. Believe women." The code is accountability, human decency, human kindness, respect. It has to be.

lots of wisdom here

if you see jane doe's name, no you did not. don't dox them. as a survivor of SA, i stand w survivors. #cornell7

i look forward to this book, knowing the exparents wd squirm & be enraged by it. fuck em.

we do pay for our own therapy & there is no justice. we're alone w our scars. #religiousabuse #childhoodtrauma #traumasurvivor

Today’s Canadian painting is “Mother and Child” painted by Norval Morrisseau in 2005. This is Truth and Rconciliation Day in Canada, a day to remember the harms done to Canada’s first peoples.

it's orange shirt day. i am properly decorated for remembrance. not every child made it home. some did, & the harms stretched out for generations. my abuelo went to the spanish schools & lost his language. i remember him today along w every other child. every child matters.

there is no 'before' for me. it happened so early. i am creating a future me from the shards of the now and the past. #religiousabuse #childhoodtrauma #traumasurvivor

yall, ig is popping off. the girlies are doxxing every single admin they can find at cornell, plus the cornell 7 and their families. women are (correctly) going scorched earth.

Your quality of life is important enough to not spend one more second than necessary tolerating a person or a situation that makes you feel like sh*t. No matter what that voice from your past is whispering in your ear— or screaming in your face— as you read this.

i am choosing something different today. #religiousabuse #childhoodtrauma #traumasurvivor

finally got thru the necessary steps to write abt the time she said we were italian and not mexicane indij. that was an unexpected grief i didn't know i needed to process. this book is a lot, but i remembered abuela's recipe for rice! #booksky #authorsky #amwriting #childhoodtrauma #books #writers