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I turn 38 this Saturday, 31st of October 2026. I have never cared much for birthdays. There were the standard birthday parties in childhood but by the time I reached 14 or 15, these were down to one or two people, always casteist Savarnas.

I will try to be as happy as I can and to remember every moment of my successful peaceful, non-violent struggle across decades and continents to re-humanize and (re)educate myself.

I turn 38 this Saturday, 31st of October 2026. I have never cared much for birthdays. There were the standard birthday parties in childhood but by the time I reached 14 or 15, these were down to one or two people, always casteist Savarnas.

I have no interest in repeating such a lengthy span of non-interaction again. It was not a good, happy, or healthy existence.

I turn 38 this Saturday, 31st of October 2026. I have never cared much for birthdays. There were the standard birthday parties in childhood but by the time I reached 14 or 15, these were down to one or two people, always casteist Savarnas.

From my 37th birthday onwards last year, I didn't have one meaningful 5 minute conversation with anyone for the next half a year (approximately).

I turn 38 this Saturday, 31st of October 2026. I have never cared much for birthdays. There were the standard birthday parties in childhood but by the time I reached 14 or 15, these were down to one or two people, always casteist Savarnas.

I recall seeing my baby teeth kept in a ziplock bag, I always found that weird. Why would anyone want or need to keep these things. What the point of this I don't know.

I turn 38 this Saturday, 31st of October 2026. I have never cared much for birthdays. There were the standard birthday parties in childhood but by the time I reached 14 or 15, these were down to one or two people, always casteist Savarnas.

I've been meditating on the various forms of control and domination implemented by the casteist biological Hindutva-slave household. One of the tings that they do in childhood is to shave off all of the child's hair at a temple.

I turn 38 this Saturday, 31st of October 2026. I have never cared much for birthdays. There were the standard birthday parties in childhood but by the time I reached 14 or 15, these were down to one or two people, always casteist Savarnas.

I'm not going to celebrate. I don't have any money to be doing that with. But I will be happy.

I turn 38 this Saturday, 31st of October 2026. I have never cared much for birthdays. There were the standard birthday parties in childhood but by the time I reached 14 or 15, these were down to one or two people, always casteist Savarnas.

I don't have physical community here in Kitchener. I don't know how to get there. There aren't active BIPOC Buddhist groups here.

I turn 38 this Saturday, 31st of October 2026. I have never cared much for birthdays. There were the standard birthday parties in childhood but by the time I reached 14 or 15, these were down to one or two people, always casteist Savarnas.

My 38th birthday is this Saturday, 31st of October 2026.

I turn 38 this Saturday, 31st of October 2026. I have never cared much for birthdays. There were the standard birthday parties in childhood but by the time I reached 14 or 15, these were down to one or two people, always casteist Savarnas.

There was something to be happy about while I was in a serious, committed relationship with my former partner. Those were small celebrations usually. I ceased accepting gifts from the casteist biological Hindutva-slave household.

I turn 38 this Saturday, 31st of October 2026. I have never cared much for birthdays. There were the standard birthday parties in childhood but by the time I reached 14 or 15, these were down to one or two people, always casteist Savarnas.

i found out that operating a heater in the winter (because cold) together with a humidifier (because heater causes dry) causes a cool thing where, due to the hardness of the water here (high mineral content), a small layer of mineral stuff gets deposited onto the heating elements which then get …