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It's been a while. Some thoughts about the last couple of months. I have a great blessing and a big curse at the same time. I want to be one of the greats. I don't just want to make software, I want to make the greatest software ever.

In an age where AI code and slop dominate and slowly turn all software into shit, destroying the future stability, usability, and quality of software, this matters.

But on the other hand, it feels like driving with the handbrakes on because everybody else is shipping full-on products with millions of lines of code in a week.

For a few months now, I've been wanting to launch more products, build Coolify v5, and move faster while still progressing in life and learning new things.

Instead of progressing, I've been getting slower, more tired, and for weeks now more and more stressed, always feeling like I'm falling further and further behind. At first I thought the reason was just that I want to do too many things in life.

While that's true to some extent, it isn't the full story. The real issue is energy. To get more of it I started sleeping more, but I still felt tired every day.

The actual problem was that I've been neglecting walks and workouts for months because I wanted to focus on work and ship more, but that was the biggest mistake I could have made. Energy vanishes and everything slows down with it.

Everybody told me so, I know. But the world we live in makes it so easy to get comfortable. Every time one small goal is reached, it widens and 50 new ones appear, never really living the current moment, always chasing the next thing, trying so hard to move faster that everything else gets skipped.