Niko

Niko

@10kbcat.meowing.zip

sysadmin, web dev, & video editor sometimes โ€ข 22 it/they โ€ข &๐Ÿณ๏ธโ€โšง๏ธ๐Ÿณ๏ธโ€๐ŸŒˆ

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@10kbcat.meowing.zip

ref sheet for my fursona or whatever . who cares i cant draw for shit this is the best ur getting ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’”

Niko
@10kbcat.meowing.zip

im sorry. i was having a bpd meltdown earlier today. i started flipping out, thinking everything is over. sorry about the suicidal spiel, i thought everything was over.

Niko
@10kbcat.meowing.zip

my only good redeeming qualities about me that im really good at hurting people who cares if i die. i really dont think people have any more patience with me and i give up trying my absolute best to control myself but nobody is willing to give me patience anymore so who cares.

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its a reoccurring nightmare that will never end. all i think about everyday is people leaving me or everyone who l have ever lost. every day. every night. sleeping and waking up is getting harder now. its not getting better its actually GETTING WORSE!!!

Niko
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im tired of it all, im tired of feeling all this pain and trauma every fucking day of my life. im miserable and clearly nobody even gives a shit about me anymore. i want to kill myself, i want it as painful as possible. I dont deserve to keep living.

Niko
@10kbcat.meowing.zip

my only good redeeming qualities about me that im really good at hurting people who cares if i die. i really dont think people have any more patience with me and i give up trying my absolute best to control myself but nobody is willing to give me patience anymore so who cares.

Niko
@10kbcat.meowing.zip

i wont improve and i never will. nothing will ever make me stable. i will never have a stable friendship with anyone, it never will happen and its pathetic that i keep thinking that things will get better and they never will. its all a lie and i cant listen to these delusions anymore

Niko
@10kbcat.meowing.zip

im an asshole, im a hurtful person , and i have no clue why anybody is still willing to be my friend when they themselves lost patience with me. i give up. i give up trying. nothing will improve and ur kidding urself if you think they will. because it wont

Niko
@10kbcat.meowing.zip

do not just put "yea" in the alt text, it would just be better if you just didnt put any alt text at all you alt text larping ass bitch

Niko
@10kbcat.meowing.zip

also forgot to mention but the ref sheet is already on my website (i already deployed it before i made the post)