Post

Today I recorded my final session for You and I Are Polar Opposites! I voiced the delightfully dead inside Home Room Teacher & the much more lively Hasegawa! Directors Emily Fajardo & Dani Chambers & my engineers were all wonderful! This show may have saved me & I’ll tell ya why.

About a year ago I realized something was wrong. I felt terrible - achy, exhausted, stressed, burnt out - all the bad stuff despite actively improving my health and getting in better shape! My voice was weak, my throat was chronically dry & scratchy & it affected my work & stressed me out further.

I figured it was a number of things, so I addressed them individually, but nothing really changed longterm. I wondered if I was falling out of love with acting, if the stress of pursuing it was hurting my health. To be frank, I also genuinely feel I was mistreated by certain directors.

This all came to a head fairly recently. I was feeling the most overwhelmed, drained, frustrated I’ve ever been. Despite my hard work, despite trying to be kind and respectful, why couldn’t I get further in my career? Why did it seem like nobody accepted me or wanted me here? What more must I do?!

Then a friend on the spectrum suggested I may be masking. I didn’t think so, but then I tried stopping. Holy cow. It changed my world. I did not realize how much energy I was putting into to presenting myself in a way that felt acceptable to the world, yet still being rejected anyway.